09-16-2015, 01:01 AM
(09-15-2015, 08:44 PM)eternitys_child Wrote: there certainly is a dark side to being wise, and that's loneliness... BUT! it doesn't have to be that way. whenever i started considering myself "above" other people because of my intelligence, I set myself up to be a loner.
What's helping me right now is taking a genuine interest in other people, for instance by saying "hi how are you doing?" and MEANING it. i learned it from the book "how to win friends and influence people"
when I started taking action and doing what I could to form friendships / strengthen existing ones, the connections grew. conversely, sitting around and wondering why i dont' have friends brings me more of the same.... or lack there of
and bro, even though you're 18, in the grander scheme of things, you're ONLY 18. You have plenty of opportunity and time ahead of you to work on being self sufficient, and the fact that you're so young and are working on stocks is certainly setting yourself up for financial securoity in a couple years. As long as you're not taking advantage of your parents' money and just wasting space, you can feel at ease. Although the discomfort you are feeling is a "hunger" for success which is a GREAT thing, and you should definitely channel that constructively to build a future for yourself
To clarify I'm not a loner, I feel lonely. I'm a social guy, in fact, one of the most influential person and well-known in multiple colleges, but that is it. People I can connect to, meaning intellectually, are few.
I've read countless books, from mainstream philosophy (Dale C., Napoleon H., Charles F. H., etc.) to classic philosophy (Aristotle, Sun Tzu, Zen, Confucius, Muhammad, Jesus, Buddha, Epicurus, etc.) to economy, politics, yada yada yada and what do I feel? An ego trap. Feeling higher than normal being. People could give me emotional ecstasy, but intelligence ecstasy? Buurrbb.
The more one know about the world, the more one realize how they don't know anything, yet the dilemma of knowing more and "emptiness" still reside. That's what I feel, and this phrase is the epitome of what I believe. Currently.
This might be "positive" hunger, but still, its killing me.
To emphasize about me, I despise wasting. 80% of my parent's money are used for self-improvements and long-term investment. I hate wasting in any aspect and this cause me to reason frontally with people I've meet "How could you live life without understanding what you want?"
You could get hyped with "You're 18, be proud", No! "I'm already 18 and this is the only sh1t I've earn?"
Insane, huh?
