06-14-2012, 06:04 AM
Sounds awesome Morgul. Reminds me of my Alpha journey, it was a pretty amazing journey and I look forward to doing 5.0.
The anger was probably there and you pushed it down. I know I did because I learnt it was wrong to express myself as when I did my parents would get more angry, and unfortunately it would build up and explode. I had some extreme anger during Alpha, but also started to become aware of it and was able to catch myself a few times when it was getting too much.
And in the end I become much calmer.
As for them being more interested even with the anger, well it seems your accepting it instead of ignoring it now which is more powerful than pushing it down.
-Ben
The anger was probably there and you pushed it down. I know I did because I learnt it was wrong to express myself as when I did my parents would get more angry, and unfortunately it would build up and explode. I had some extreme anger during Alpha, but also started to become aware of it and was able to catch myself a few times when it was getting too much.
And in the end I become much calmer.
As for them being more interested even with the anger, well it seems your accepting it instead of ignoring it now which is more powerful than pushing it down.
-Ben
