08-02-2016, 10:25 PM
(This post was last modified: 08-02-2016, 10:28 PM by hiddenalias.)
Day 8- Stage 1/7
Total Listening Time - 6 to 7 hours before work day
extra hour of listening whist awake after work
Total listening 7 to 8 hours.
So What I experienced today was that I am more easily approaching to talk to my coworkers at my job. I am sparking conversation.
In contrast I feel like my irrational fears have returned. I started doubting myself kinda like afraid of speaking out and had a young man at my job who is also a coworker and he was in his teens, he was the prime example of what I would like to be. Lots of fun stories, high energy, playful fun talker wins friends easily. That is what Id like to be and even how he talked to the store manager, I was not even close to talk to her in such a manner. But I did have decent short conversations with 2 or 3 workers. I truly hope it is resistance that causes irrational fears.
I used to fear entering my job when returning to work after a delivery, but I kinda don't feel that nervous twitch anymore. I literally sparked all conversation and saying hi to anyone new at the job that I never met before.
There were things I wanted to say and still couldnt bring myself to saying it today, per the mention that my irrational fears came back to haunt me.
I need more exposure, more headphone usage, and tonight I am going to pull my speakers closer to my bed and test if that helps any bit.
Total Listening Time - 6 to 7 hours before work day
extra hour of listening whist awake after work
Total listening 7 to 8 hours.
So What I experienced today was that I am more easily approaching to talk to my coworkers at my job. I am sparking conversation.
In contrast I feel like my irrational fears have returned. I started doubting myself kinda like afraid of speaking out and had a young man at my job who is also a coworker and he was in his teens, he was the prime example of what I would like to be. Lots of fun stories, high energy, playful fun talker wins friends easily. That is what Id like to be and even how he talked to the store manager, I was not even close to talk to her in such a manner. But I did have decent short conversations with 2 or 3 workers. I truly hope it is resistance that causes irrational fears.
I used to fear entering my job when returning to work after a delivery, but I kinda don't feel that nervous twitch anymore. I literally sparked all conversation and saying hi to anyone new at the job that I never met before.
There were things I wanted to say and still couldnt bring myself to saying it today, per the mention that my irrational fears came back to haunt me.
I need more exposure, more headphone usage, and tonight I am going to pull my speakers closer to my bed and test if that helps any bit.
