08-01-2016, 05:31 PM
(This post was last modified: 08-01-2016, 06:22 PM by hiddenalias.)
Day 7 - Stage 1/7
Listening time 7 hours
US Tones - volume 30
Don't remember dreaming today. But I woke up all of a sudden for no apparent reason and couldn't fall back asleep. Usually I wake up if I need to use the bathroom but nothing.
Since the last time I reported being an extrovert the last time I literally worked, and it has been several days in between, today was like the next day I went to work. No guys it isnt because I was irrationally fearing of going to work, well maybe it was....then again maybe it was just laziness.......But with different people and different location. Here is how I felt:
I am still not a good conversationalist and don't know any ice breakers with the newbies at work or how to build rapport with them. So hopefully that repairs itself with AM 6. But I guess 1 week later if I am getting these results with AM 6 and the journey is still over half of a year long, imagine how far I can get with more hours of listening. I know I said I'd put the sub into a loop but I don't know how many hours I could account for doing that and also moving around in and out of my room all day and then leaving the house etc.
Listening time 7 hours
US Tones - volume 30
Don't remember dreaming today. But I woke up all of a sudden for no apparent reason and couldn't fall back asleep. Usually I wake up if I need to use the bathroom but nothing.
Since the last time I reported being an extrovert the last time I literally worked, and it has been several days in between, today was like the next day I went to work. No guys it isnt because I was irrationally fearing of going to work, well maybe it was....then again maybe it was just laziness.......But with different people and different location. Here is how I felt:
- Saying what I need to say when needed without any irrational fears of speaking up
1. I kept asking for help to my store manager, calling her by her name, Erica, (by the way she was a MILF looking beauty), when I needed questions answered and wasn't scared of asking or irrationally fearing. If I needed to find out some stuff I did and I did it through several occasions at work today without being afraid of speaking up. Example, I was told to go with a coworker to drop cash at the bank. I actually was furious not knowing why the F I gota follow this guy to the bank through the drive thru teller when I should be siting with him in the car to observe what he is doing so I could learn what he's doing. So the first thing I did was I think I just spoke up what I felt without any nervous feeling in my voice speaking up what I wanted to say and just saying it; no doubting myself either if I should say it or not and just said it both to the general manager and store manager while they were chattering away in the office. Basically I confronted them. But when the general manager explained to me why I did it the way they asked me to, it all made sense. That's fine I just needed an explanation. In the end I just gave him a high 5 that we are "still cool" I just wanted to know.
2. Asking the store manager that I wasn't copping out with prepping for the 10am shift and was asking to come in at 12pm instead (lol I really didn't want to prep!) But she was like ask the general manager if you could come in at 11am latest since they didnt have an option to come in at 12pm. I didnt bother asking cuz I thought about it and I'd just go ahead and deal with morning preping only becuz I wanted to leave early from work and there was no ****ing way I'd ever deliver pizza at night time with a flashlight looking for apt. # in apt buildings late at night. **** that!
3. Called out for help when I needed it or was stuck doing something (usually I would just stay quiet like irrationally fearing afraid of asking for help or shy away not being loud to let others know I needed help).
- Doing things without irrationally fearing and not doing it
I guess greeting new stranger co workers is on this list especially on the first day in a new location. Remember I usually am standing on the sidelines and never spoke a word even if the excuse is "its my first day on the job and I dont know who the hell you are so I wont even say hi to you". So I Been saying my greetings to the new fellow co workers because I wanted to and not staying quiet just because I didn't know them.
- Making the general manager chuckle and joking with him ( a quirky remark) That is also not because I decided to go up to him to spark a conversation and buddy up with him but because he was helping me cash out before leaving for home so I seized the moment. Usually I never was the kinda guy that would ever make a joke with the manager.
I am still not a good conversationalist and don't know any ice breakers with the newbies at work or how to build rapport with them. So hopefully that repairs itself with AM 6. But I guess 1 week later if I am getting these results with AM 6 and the journey is still over half of a year long, imagine how far I can get with more hours of listening. I know I said I'd put the sub into a loop but I don't know how many hours I could account for doing that and also moving around in and out of my room all day and then leaving the house etc.
