09-05-2017, 07:29 AM
Day 8 - work based productivity remains high and I'm actually happy there for the first time in months. I realised today too that I am making more of an effort physically: I wore mascara to work when I rarely ever wear makeup, and am mentally thinking about my outfit more. I'm also more motivated to exercise.
I was told I'm being needy today which really annoyed me. On reflection, I can see how my being more authentic and impulsive could be interpreted as needing attention. Funny though, because internally I feel more secure and confident now than I have in twenty years. I'm positive the AF scripting shares elements with DMSI because of the external male response but also the shift in my self talk, which I notice at quiet moments like on the bus. I'm actually thinking thoughts of feeling invincible and of having a magnetic personality. The highs and lows are calming - today was another upbeat day but not crazy euphoria high (way better than having a hermit inducing low day).
I was told I'm being needy today which really annoyed me. On reflection, I can see how my being more authentic and impulsive could be interpreted as needing attention. Funny though, because internally I feel more secure and confident now than I have in twenty years. I'm positive the AF scripting shares elements with DMSI because of the external male response but also the shift in my self talk, which I notice at quiet moments like on the bus. I'm actually thinking thoughts of feeling invincible and of having a magnetic personality. The highs and lows are calming - today was another upbeat day but not crazy euphoria high (way better than having a hermit inducing low day).
