01-21-2014, 06:48 AM
Day 28.
I got mad today. Hopping mad. In my head was a mish mash of what happened, and I couldn't tell what was the root cause of my anger.
I felt a little hopeless as I watched the scenes unfold, knowing the people involved, the situation just escalated beyond control like feeding a potentially wild fire. I was the buffer. Things just got worse as both sides do what they usually do to fuel each other's fire and as the buffer I had to grow to accommodate both sides and in the end got taken for granted, by both sides. I collapsed from trying to support the two.
I still don't know what I'm mad at, who I'm mad at, was it myself or someone else. All I know is some people just need to grow up, and grow out of serving their self-interests. Then there will be world peace.
I'm tired from all the commotion, even though I didn't do much or say much, I was battling inside what to do or say to mitigate the situation. I am so tired. So so tired...
I got mad today. Hopping mad. In my head was a mish mash of what happened, and I couldn't tell what was the root cause of my anger.
I felt a little hopeless as I watched the scenes unfold, knowing the people involved, the situation just escalated beyond control like feeding a potentially wild fire. I was the buffer. Things just got worse as both sides do what they usually do to fuel each other's fire and as the buffer I had to grow to accommodate both sides and in the end got taken for granted, by both sides. I collapsed from trying to support the two.
I still don't know what I'm mad at, who I'm mad at, was it myself or someone else. All I know is some people just need to grow up, and grow out of serving their self-interests. Then there will be world peace.
I'm tired from all the commotion, even though I didn't do much or say much, I was battling inside what to do or say to mitigate the situation. I am so tired. So so tired...
