01-18-2014, 08:12 AM
Day 26.
Ok, I'm learning to read my body. Initially I couldn't tell if a period was coming. I can feel it now. Although it isn't a 100% removal of pain and mood swings (initially it felt that way! I think it might because of the drastic reduction of pain and mood swings), I am VERY happy with the sub.
Previously, I got upset over particular matters (what my husband would call "tiny things" that ought to be shrugged off). I was upset, that's the way I felt! Now the opposite happens... No, the sub didn't make my husband get PMS... but when he flares up for some reason he may not really understand, and I couldn't for my life explain why he would see something so trivial in such a light that would upset him. I can understand why some men ridicule PMS. I'm just happy to have outgrown it
I'm a lot more stable emotionally. I have been feeling up, down, up, down the past days, but they are not huge swings. The down days... well, I wouldn't pay much notice to it, except for that I'm writing this journal.
Something that caught my attention today... I got angry, and I kinda showed it (in a tactful way, using silence). I'm actually happy that happened (because I thought I lost my anger!). Even though I don't quite understand it, I have faith that the changes are for the better. In short, what used to anger me, doesn't seem so anymore. And what I used to respond amicably, I express my anger!
Ok, I'm learning to read my body. Initially I couldn't tell if a period was coming. I can feel it now. Although it isn't a 100% removal of pain and mood swings (initially it felt that way! I think it might because of the drastic reduction of pain and mood swings), I am VERY happy with the sub.
Previously, I got upset over particular matters (what my husband would call "tiny things" that ought to be shrugged off). I was upset, that's the way I felt! Now the opposite happens... No, the sub didn't make my husband get PMS... but when he flares up for some reason he may not really understand, and I couldn't for my life explain why he would see something so trivial in such a light that would upset him. I can understand why some men ridicule PMS. I'm just happy to have outgrown it
I'm a lot more stable emotionally. I have been feeling up, down, up, down the past days, but they are not huge swings. The down days... well, I wouldn't pay much notice to it, except for that I'm writing this journal.
Something that caught my attention today... I got angry, and I kinda showed it (in a tactful way, using silence). I'm actually happy that happened (because I thought I lost my anger!). Even though I don't quite understand it, I have faith that the changes are for the better. In short, what used to anger me, doesn't seem so anymore. And what I used to respond amicably, I express my anger!
