09-06-2013, 03:57 PM
(09-05-2013, 06:36 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote: I hear you man. Have you made any more progress on doing what feels "right" for you and following that intuition? Also, it's possible to separate from your emotions as an observer. Like, you are aware of them and don't push them away, you accept them and all that, but you don't let them control you. You still do what you've got to do, I dunno, maybe you need to fragment a little.
I've always had problems keeping my feelings in check. It was an "all or nothing" kind of thing where I'd either be in touch with my emotions and overwhelmed or I'd be repressing them and feeling nothing. I think AM has helped me incorporate them without succumbing to them, so it may just take time for you.
What Stage are you on btw?
A little. It's just like bits of pieces of everything coming together. Some parts, not as pleasant as others. I guess that's what happens when you repress a lot of stuff.
Being the observer is something I try to do to the best of my ability and it does help at times to get me through the day. But it does control me at times and I feel like there isn't much I can do.
I'm on stage 4 and starting stage 5 sometime next week. Maybe it'll work out. I just feel like I need a break from life, I feel like I can't do this anymore. I can't keep up.
