02-28-2016, 03:19 AM
Aggression has grown a lot, to a point where I can't keep it down all the time like in the past. This is an unusual experience since I have always been the "kind" "nice" and "passive" doormat kind of guy. It doesn't feel as uncomfortable being aggressive as it did on my first run of AM6. Already this tells me that the growth has been tremendous. I want to be comfortable around my aggression and not feeling like I have to stuff it down. This seems to be happening now on ASC.
Had a meeting with 2 people about a French language course last week. I felt incredibly anxious and weak. I told them I feel anxious a lot of the time with people and they brushed it off, take medication and bs like that. That moment I saw through the crap and the superficial shit that was supposed to show me how much in control of their lives they are when it is actually the opposite. At some point they recommended that I do something and for a response I told them I won't be put in wheel to slave away for the rest of my life on a meaningless job, that just won't happen. They both seemed a little shocked.
I am a little disappointed though, I still felt pretty weak and submissive at times during the conversation when technically there was no reason that I should.
Not going to lie, I've been gaming quite a lot recently and damn am I good at it. Sadly it's just another escaping mechanism so even that becomes an autopilot zombie habit.
After my 6 months on ASC I will either go with EHPRA 2.0 or AM6. I am starting to feel ready to give AM another shot.
My BF has dropped to 12.1% with 75kg and the abs are showing quite nicely.
Had a meeting with 2 people about a French language course last week. I felt incredibly anxious and weak. I told them I feel anxious a lot of the time with people and they brushed it off, take medication and bs like that. That moment I saw through the crap and the superficial shit that was supposed to show me how much in control of their lives they are when it is actually the opposite. At some point they recommended that I do something and for a response I told them I won't be put in wheel to slave away for the rest of my life on a meaningless job, that just won't happen. They both seemed a little shocked.
I am a little disappointed though, I still felt pretty weak and submissive at times during the conversation when technically there was no reason that I should.
Not going to lie, I've been gaming quite a lot recently and damn am I good at it. Sadly it's just another escaping mechanism so even that becomes an autopilot zombie habit.
After my 6 months on ASC I will either go with EHPRA 2.0 or AM6. I am starting to feel ready to give AM another shot.
My BF has dropped to 12.1% with 75kg and the abs are showing quite nicely.
