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@NOMAD A curiosity I've had. Is your thumbnail of the Salah ad-Din (Saladin) as featured in the movie Kingdom of Heaven?

[NOMAD]

@NOMAD  A curiosity I've had. Is your thumbnail of the Salah ad-Din (Saladin) as featured in the movie Kingdom of Heaven?

No, it's Chris Evans from some Infinity War promo art I saw years ago. His character in Infinity War was a nod to a character that Steve Rogers became after leaving the Captain America mantle. The character's name was Nomad.

The image and the name both resonated with me deeply when I selected them. As i ponder them, they still do, but in a different way.

[NOMAD]

RIP JJ McQuade 

You could kick Walker's ass any day of the week. 

IYKYK...if you don't,  you can (and should) watch Lone Wolf McQuade for free on Tubi.

[NOMAD]

Stage 0 - Day 36

I'm feeling hints of motivation again. It feels like the clouds are beginning to part and rays of sunshine are starting to peek through.

Edit: As I was drifting off to sleep last night,  I felt bulletproof, like i was unstoppable in every way. At first, it kept me awake, but i settled into it and slid into a deep sleep. It was an incredible feeling that I wish was the norm.

[ncbeareatingman]

Stage 0 - Day 36

I'm feeling hints of motivation again. It feels like the clouds are beginning to part and rays of sunshine are starting to peek through.

Edit: As I was drifting off to sleep last night,  I felt bulletproof, like i was unstoppable in every way. At first, it kept me awake, but i settled into it and slid into a deep sleep. It was an incredible feeling that I wish was the norm.

 Firggin' awesome Man. Thanks for the inspiration. The Warriors  Journey continues!!  Axis: Bold as Love !!

[NOMAD]

Stage 0 - Day 37

Today I've had multiple small talk conversations and stayed fully engaged in each one. Usually, I'm disinterested and check out mentally. Today,  that didn't happen. I attribute that to BROP. I hope BROP is embedded in each stage of AM7.

[NOMAD]

Stage 0 - Day 39

I believe I'm mostly past whatever PRA  was working on a week or so ago. Emotionally, I feel pretty good. I've even had a few rare moments where internally, I felt like an excited little kid who is full of joy.

Small social interactions that used to annoy me are becoming borderline enjoyable. In some cases, people who are usually intimidated by me seem more relaxed. In other cases, I've noticed people holding eye contact mostly with me out of a crowd of people. That used to be a regular thing while running Maverick, but I don't recall experiencing it since then.

With how I'm executing right now, Stage 0 is very pleasant. It'll be interesting to see how it continues to morph over the next three months. 

Although I won't begin Stage 1 until late June, I'm eager to see subsequent stages released so I can read the writeup. I usually read the write-ups multiple times before and during the my run. That's part of the fun.

[ncbeareatingman]

Stage 0 - Day 39

I believe I'm mostly past whatever PRA  was working on a week or so ago. Emotionally, I feel pretty good. I've even had a few rare moments where internally, I felt like an excited little kid who is full of joy.

Small social interactions that used to annoy me are becoming borderline enjoyable. In some cases, people who are usually intimidated by me seem more relaxed. In other cases, I've noticed people holding eye contact mostly with me out of a crowd of people. That used to be a regular thing while running Maverick, but I don't recall experiencing it since then.

With how I'm executing right now, Stage 0 is very pleasant. It'll be interesting to see how it continues to morph over the next three months. 

Although I won't begin Stage 1 until late June, I'm eager to see subsequent stages released so I can read the writeup. I usually read the write-ups multiple times before and during the my run. That's part of the fun.

Nomad,
Dont forget Primal Masculinity, which you love & for good reason, is in the mix, too!! So much at play with Stage 0 . Good stuff,indeed.

[NOMAD]

Stage 0 - Day 39

I believe I'm mostly past whatever PRA  was working on a week or so ago. Emotionally, I feel pretty good. I've even had a few rare moments where internally, I felt like an excited little kid who is full of joy.

Small social interactions that used to annoy me are becoming borderline enjoyable. In some cases, people who are usually intimidated by me seem more relaxed. In other cases, I've noticed people holding eye contact mostly with me out of a crowd of people. That used to be a regular thing while running Maverick, but I don't recall experiencing it since then.

With how I'm executing right now, Stage 0 is very pleasant. It'll be interesting to see how it continues to morph over the next three months. 

Although I won't begin Stage 1 until late June, I'm eager to see subsequent stages released so I can read the writeup. I usually read the write-ups multiple times before and during the my run. That's part of the fun.

Nomad,
Dont forget Primal Masculinity, which you love & for good reason, is in the mix, too!! So much at play with Stage 0 . Good stuff,indeed.

Yes, I love Primal Masculinity. I know it's there, but I don't see much that I can attribute to it.

[NOMAD]

Stage 0 - Day 39 (cont"d)

It occurred to me today that I have emotional trauma around happiness and joy. As a kid, I can remember my dad yelling at me when I got excited. I was extremely sensitive as a child, so I took scoldings to heart. Over time, I learned to suppress my own happiness and to anticipate the turn of events that would destroy any joy I might be feeling.  I suspect that's at least part of what PRA has been working on recently.

[ncbeareatingman]

Nomad,
Dont forget Primal Masculinity, which you love & for good reason, is in the mix, too!! So much at play with Stage 0 . Good stuff,indeed.

Yes, I love Primal Masculinity. I know it's there, but I don't see much that I can attribute to it.

Not yet, by you will....just wait;-)

[NOMAD]

Stage 0 - Day 42

There was a time when I would've blown a gasket with certain things going on in my life right now. But I'm managing to stay relatively calm. On the flip side,  there's a darker part of me that I'm becoming more comfortable with. This part of me is cold and calculated. It reminds me of things I've read about shadow work and integration. I'm not sure if there's any scripting that results in this type of thing but I thought I'd mention it.

It's amazing to me that, not only have I NOT lost my shit, but I don't feel the need to bitch about it to anyone...not in the slightest.

[ncbeareatingman]

Stage 0 - Day 42

There was a time when I would've blown a gasket with certain things going on in my life right now. But I'm managing to stay relatively calm. On the flip side,  there's a darker part of me that I'm becoming more comfortable with. This part of me is cold and calculated. It reminds me of things I've read about shadow work and integration. I'm not sure if there's any scripting that results in this type of thing but I thought I'd mention it.

It's amazing to me that, not only have I NOT lost my shit, but I don't feel the need to bitch about it to anyone...not in the slightest.

Forgive me for posting on your journal page, so soon. 
 I Am truly inspired by the posting, testimonials & experience's Men here using AAMT7 , Have had & are having!!

I Am so looking forward to getting this program in Early May & using it  Myself. To you i say, more power to ya and ever higher,Man.

[NOMAD]

Stage 0 - Day 47

I feel flat. I don't detect any resistance, but I'm also not motivated to do anything productive. 

I'm being very honest to myself about what I want versus where I am, more so than I've ever been. There's some emotional discomfort in that, but it's not too bad. I suspect that Stage 0 is dissolving any remaining delusions about myself and my life that I've allowed myself to believe. That seems like a sensible first step to the rest of my journey. So, while I'm not feeling a robust drive toward anything in particular, I'm gaining a better understanding of what I don't want. And from gaining a better understanding of what I don't want, I can better determine what I do want. That's notable progress.

What I'm experiencing now isn't new, but Stage 0 seems to have sped the process up.