06-15-2014, 01:46 AM
Stage 3 day 7
My neediness is very high, I wasn't able to recognize that from the previous stage. But I see it clearly now, I'm really needy. I couldn't even react correctly to my grandma, I'm afraid to be this guy that attract every girls. Hard to say but I had to say it so I can correct it. I'm frustrated today about this situation but in a very different way. Hard to describe but it's like I observe every bit of my own behavior like it's not my own and I'm just there watching this needy guy.
I'm absolutely not in a socialize state, I'm harsh about everything. I'm feed up with about this bullshit and I want things to change.
Most girls didn't notice me yesterday when I went out, some of them was but it was odd.
This is how I feel right now but I'm not going to give up at all about AM6.
My neediness is very high, I wasn't able to recognize that from the previous stage. But I see it clearly now, I'm really needy. I couldn't even react correctly to my grandma, I'm afraid to be this guy that attract every girls. Hard to say but I had to say it so I can correct it. I'm frustrated today about this situation but in a very different way. Hard to describe but it's like I observe every bit of my own behavior like it's not my own and I'm just there watching this needy guy.
I'm absolutely not in a socialize state, I'm harsh about everything. I'm feed up with about this bullshit and I want things to change.
Most girls didn't notice me yesterday when I went out, some of them was but it was odd.
This is how I feel right now but I'm not going to give up at all about AM6.
