Stage 6, Day 8:
I've caught a cold.
It's crazy how things can change from day to day. Even though I'm sick, I felt very confident and set some boundaries, which is very important to me. Also, my non-neediness is again at an all-time high, in the best way possible.
Sometimes I work with some beautiful women. They may not be the best-looking, but they carry themselves as if they are models or something, probably because of the way most people simp for them.
I'm just being myself, I automatically do my own thing and am not needy at all.
Just because that how I feel, I do it on an unconscious level. AM6 made me non needy at all and that's how I act.
It feels like they don't know what to do with it, as if there's an unspoken feeling in the air: "He doesn't care about my beauty." This isn't the case with all women, but with those who see me often and think highly of themselves.
I don't think it's the superior behavior necessarily but an Alpha Male shouldn't care about women he sees all the time so it does make sense for it to be in the program.
I've texted a beautiful girl who used to work with me few years ago. She's really hot and we used to flirt a lot!
And then as I texted her and I see her responses I remembered why I don't want to do much with her -
She's really not stable. That's how I felt back then.
And of course using AM6 it will be what I feel now even more so. "Time waste" flag!
I did flirt and she flirted back but it doesn't look like she want anything with me.
Again it's probably for the better.
Another thing is, I've started to practice non-ejaculatory orgasms, which for now works for me, but we'll see how it goes. I did start to watch some porn again here and there, but since Stage 4/5, I've really lost interest in porn. Again, an amazing benefit. It seems like a lot of people who come in touch with me look up to me.
But it doesn't translate to women outside of work. So I guess that's a big benefit nonetheless.
Sometimes at work, with some clients, I see some girls react to me like they are super shy around me.
Again a sign of attraction - it happens naturally as I'm very dry and serious most of the time.
Of course I can joke around a bit, but AM6 made me more serious than ever.
I still have Money problems andbfell bad about...
I have a feel if I were to do 3 more run throughs of AM6 my money situation would really change for the better.
At least I want to think so.
However I think after I finish AM6 I'm going to start to use OPH 5.10 I have too many health problems.
Before I can even handle something else I should really focus on my health (pain, fibro, autoimmune conditions and so on).
Generally I'm healthy but because of pains and muscle strains it's hard for me to workout.
Yoga is much better and I should find a time to go back to it!
Still sick, but actually feel better about myself.
The ups and downs are real!
I've caught a cold.
It's crazy how things can change from day to day. Even though I'm sick, I felt very confident and set some boundaries, which is very important to me. Also, my non-neediness is again at an all-time high, in the best way possible.
Sometimes I work with some beautiful women. They may not be the best-looking, but they carry themselves as if they are models or something, probably because of the way most people simp for them.
I'm just being myself, I automatically do my own thing and am not needy at all.
Just because that how I feel, I do it on an unconscious level. AM6 made me non needy at all and that's how I act.
It feels like they don't know what to do with it, as if there's an unspoken feeling in the air: "He doesn't care about my beauty." This isn't the case with all women, but with those who see me often and think highly of themselves.
I don't think it's the superior behavior necessarily but an Alpha Male shouldn't care about women he sees all the time so it does make sense for it to be in the program.
I've texted a beautiful girl who used to work with me few years ago. She's really hot and we used to flirt a lot!
And then as I texted her and I see her responses I remembered why I don't want to do much with her -
She's really not stable. That's how I felt back then.
And of course using AM6 it will be what I feel now even more so. "Time waste" flag!
I did flirt and she flirted back but it doesn't look like she want anything with me.
Again it's probably for the better.
Another thing is, I've started to practice non-ejaculatory orgasms, which for now works for me, but we'll see how it goes. I did start to watch some porn again here and there, but since Stage 4/5, I've really lost interest in porn. Again, an amazing benefit. It seems like a lot of people who come in touch with me look up to me.
But it doesn't translate to women outside of work. So I guess that's a big benefit nonetheless.
Sometimes at work, with some clients, I see some girls react to me like they are super shy around me.
Again a sign of attraction - it happens naturally as I'm very dry and serious most of the time.
Of course I can joke around a bit, but AM6 made me more serious than ever.
I still have Money problems andbfell bad about...
I have a feel if I were to do 3 more run throughs of AM6 my money situation would really change for the better.
At least I want to think so.
However I think after I finish AM6 I'm going to start to use OPH 5.10 I have too many health problems.
Before I can even handle something else I should really focus on my health (pain, fibro, autoimmune conditions and so on).
Generally I'm healthy but because of pains and muscle strains it's hard for me to workout.
Yoga is much better and I should find a time to go back to it!
Still sick, but actually feel better about myself.
The ups and downs are real!
