day 17: Ran a bunch of errands for people. I'm so sick and tired of it. People are starting to use me to their advantage because I'm not working at the moment. Like EVERYONE in my family. It's pissing me off and I can't say no cause I look "bad" since In their eyes I got nothing else to do. However I bought so much food to go on a diet and 1/3 of the food is gonna go to waste because it's been a couple of days since I bought em so they'll expire..such as yogurt, spinach, broccolli etc. I've lost my self esteem it seems..maybe it's cause I'm jobless..but tomorrow I have a job interview with a car company for their internet sales. If it's good money I'll take it. I'm pretty confident I'll get the job, since I'm well knowledged in sales. Let's see if the money is worth it.
edit: Oh and I've had 2 dreams on different days where a dog is biting my butt real hard..what the heck...I had a trauma when I was a kid, I was around 8, and it was winter, I had this snowman hat, had a ball shaped cotton on the end of it, and thisbig dog thought it was a ball and jumped on me, crawled on top of me and I was scared shitless. From then on I was real scared of dogs. Even at the age I am now, bigger dogs frighten me. I mean if there nice and I'm around them long enough I'm fine. Same with puppies I love em. I just have this paranoa that dogs will bite me. I'll tap on it tomorrow, hopefully get rid of this fear once and for all.
edit: Oh and I've had 2 dreams on different days where a dog is biting my butt real hard..what the heck...I had a trauma when I was a kid, I was around 8, and it was winter, I had this snowman hat, had a ball shaped cotton on the end of it, and thisbig dog thought it was a ball and jumped on me, crawled on top of me and I was scared shitless. From then on I was real scared of dogs. Even at the age I am now, bigger dogs frighten me. I mean if there nice and I'm around them long enough I'm fine. Same with puppies I love em. I just have this paranoa that dogs will bite me. I'll tap on it tomorrow, hopefully get rid of this fear once and for all.
