05-24-2014, 08:17 PM
day 5: Felt like a long day, didn't want to work. I noticed that people tend to get anxious and uncomfortable when it's one on one. The person who can't go without feeling involved aleays starts the convo or trys to lead it. This guy at work ignores me when there is people around, but tries to talk to me when there isn't, due to uncomfortableness. He tries to be a alpha I can see through him. He doesn't like serious talks so much, for example I was asking questions about the job and some duties and he tries to avoid them so that I don't move up in position or have power over him. I see this as insecure behaviour, yet I feed him power. From now on I'm going to let him approach me, and same with other people, I'm already feeling a little bit more confident in my body so I don't have to be the loner guy, I can see people trying to approach me with this new skill I squired and that's with confidence and being less needy.
