AM5 Stage 1 - Day 19
NoFAP - Day 18
Today has been tough so far. I'm feeling myself falling back into depression mode about my women situation. Still haven't had sex and the girl I've been seeing has been resisting. I've been tapping whenever I feel down and it has helped but the feelings come back after a while. Also the urge to watch porn and masturbate has also been quite strong lately.
I've been keeping up with my lifestyle. Meditation is going great and my concentration has rapidly improved. I hope to build on this and reach deep states of meditation soon. Gym and work is going great too and I recently received compliments on my looks which is not something I'm used to hearing despite having a good physique for a long time. However for some reason I still feel insecure about women inside. Feel like I am not worthy of beautiful women despite all the positive self talk and visualizations I've been doing. It's made me realize I still have a lot of approval seeking, insecure behaviors that I have to overcome.
NoFAP - Day 18
Today has been tough so far. I'm feeling myself falling back into depression mode about my women situation. Still haven't had sex and the girl I've been seeing has been resisting. I've been tapping whenever I feel down and it has helped but the feelings come back after a while. Also the urge to watch porn and masturbate has also been quite strong lately.
I've been keeping up with my lifestyle. Meditation is going great and my concentration has rapidly improved. I hope to build on this and reach deep states of meditation soon. Gym and work is going great too and I recently received compliments on my looks which is not something I'm used to hearing despite having a good physique for a long time. However for some reason I still feel insecure about women inside. Feel like I am not worthy of beautiful women despite all the positive self talk and visualizations I've been doing. It's made me realize I still have a lot of approval seeking, insecure behaviors that I have to overcome.