Days 112-119
OK guys, now it's starting. My resistance to stage 4 starts vanishing. My dreams are becoming more vivid.
I find myself saying things that I don't know why I said them. A friend of mine was talking to me about my relationship with my boyfriend and asked me for how long we were going out with each other. I replied to him "one week or so". Then a girl of my class, who was listening passively, said "Oh, I hope I could also have a relationship for one week!". Obviously, the girl is having problems with getting a boyfriend. What I could have replied would have been "Oh I'm sorry for you" and then change topic. But what I've said was far more interesting. I asked her "With whom?". This led to a continuation of the conversation in a cool way, without making her embarassed of having said what she said.
There are other examples of me saying different things that I wouldn't have said before this stage but I won't go into details into each of them. Just knowing that the things I said were cooler that the things I would have said normally is enough.
A friend of mine told me one day that I was moving like a hero in a movie when walking.
I've also noticed that I am moving away from some people in my life.
Those are the only thing that I've seen happening during this stage, nothing else. Looking forward to stage 5, I hope it will bring more visible changes. Maybe a lot of things are changing but I don't see them.
Love you all,
-Adri
OK guys, now it's starting. My resistance to stage 4 starts vanishing. My dreams are becoming more vivid.
I find myself saying things that I don't know why I said them. A friend of mine was talking to me about my relationship with my boyfriend and asked me for how long we were going out with each other. I replied to him "one week or so". Then a girl of my class, who was listening passively, said "Oh, I hope I could also have a relationship for one week!". Obviously, the girl is having problems with getting a boyfriend. What I could have replied would have been "Oh I'm sorry for you" and then change topic. But what I've said was far more interesting. I asked her "With whom?". This led to a continuation of the conversation in a cool way, without making her embarassed of having said what she said.
There are other examples of me saying different things that I wouldn't have said before this stage but I won't go into details into each of them. Just knowing that the things I said were cooler that the things I would have said normally is enough.
A friend of mine told me one day that I was moving like a hero in a movie when walking.
I've also noticed that I am moving away from some people in my life.
Those are the only thing that I've seen happening during this stage, nothing else. Looking forward to stage 5, I hope it will bring more visible changes. Maybe a lot of things are changing but I don't see them.
Love you all,
-Adri
