03-26-2014, 10:53 AM
Days 71 - 72 - 73
I think I'm back into a routine. I'm getting used to the effects the stage has on me I think. I don't know how it's working unconsciously but I do think it's working. I am trying not to masturbate since 5-6 days I think. It's hard at times! But I don't want this addiction anymore. Plus, I really do want to approach guys and I want my sex drive to be able to help me.
Today I met with a friend and she told me my voice had changed. So it wasn't just me! I also felt like I did not connect to her as much as I used to do. She was a very good friend before, but I've not seen her for 3 months and today she bored me. I was not connecting to her. I think she felt it but that's not my fault, I do think we're not that much on the same track anymore. I was scared to lose friends before starting AM5. Now that I see that the process is so natural, it's okay. But I don't mean I will cut her out of my life, I will just try not to see her that much because I don't see points of connections between us anymore. Maybe it's sad. I don't feel that way.
Bye,
-Adri
I think I'm back into a routine. I'm getting used to the effects the stage has on me I think. I don't know how it's working unconsciously but I do think it's working. I am trying not to masturbate since 5-6 days I think. It's hard at times! But I don't want this addiction anymore. Plus, I really do want to approach guys and I want my sex drive to be able to help me.
Today I met with a friend and she told me my voice had changed. So it wasn't just me! I also felt like I did not connect to her as much as I used to do. She was a very good friend before, but I've not seen her for 3 months and today she bored me. I was not connecting to her. I think she felt it but that's not my fault, I do think we're not that much on the same track anymore. I was scared to lose friends before starting AM5. Now that I see that the process is so natural, it's okay. But I don't mean I will cut her out of my life, I will just try not to see her that much because I don't see points of connections between us anymore. Maybe it's sad. I don't feel that way.
Bye,
-Adri
