02-11-2014, 01:08 PM
Day 30
Hey !
So today was very flat. Nothing happened at school apart from the fact that I now see that I am more cold with some people (who are really below beta !). Before, I tried to please everyone but yesterday, I had a conversation with guy who is really alpha (you want to say yes at everything he says even if you are not OK with what he says) and I noticed I was behaving really beta with him (agreeing with everything). Then I thought "Wait a minute, what do I have to show him ? If I don't agree with what he says, just say it !". I did it and it was very hard to go against him but very great at the same time because now I feel less beta ! And I try to practice this skill as much as I can by telling people I don't agree with them or to just not respond when they really are sucking value (like begging for approval by making jokes or making statements which have nothing to do with the discussion and just killing the flow !) without giving me any value back ! I just ignore them. It's hard because I know how it feels like. But I don't want to align with those guys so I have to leave them where they are at, they are just poisoning my life !
Well, I'll go to sleep ! Bye
-Adri
Hey !
So today was very flat. Nothing happened at school apart from the fact that I now see that I am more cold with some people (who are really below beta !). Before, I tried to please everyone but yesterday, I had a conversation with guy who is really alpha (you want to say yes at everything he says even if you are not OK with what he says) and I noticed I was behaving really beta with him (agreeing with everything). Then I thought "Wait a minute, what do I have to show him ? If I don't agree with what he says, just say it !". I did it and it was very hard to go against him but very great at the same time because now I feel less beta ! And I try to practice this skill as much as I can by telling people I don't agree with them or to just not respond when they really are sucking value (like begging for approval by making jokes or making statements which have nothing to do with the discussion and just killing the flow !) without giving me any value back ! I just ignore them. It's hard because I know how it feels like. But I don't want to align with those guys so I have to leave them where they are at, they are just poisoning my life !
Well, I'll go to sleep ! Bye
-Adri