AM 5.0 Journal

[stratos]

ok now hit the bed for 5 full minutes (set a timer) with your fists or a bat or stick, firmly and vigorously. if your brain plays tricks on you to get you to stop before 5 minutes just try to keep going. extra points for yelling "fuck it" 'fuck it all'. can be harder than you think to do it for 5 minutes.

[Fonzy3]

Hey man, I see you're going through some changes and just know for the downs you are feeling there are really epic ups that you'll experience. Accept your feelings but also realize that if theres something negative on your mind you can put it in the background so that you're not focusing on it and you're putting more thought towards your goal. If you have the belief that "everything is going to be ok" you'll have more of a push and motivation to pursue those options.

Thanks

Fonzy

[Leonidas]

do it like this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cHFYEQRnQew

[AlphaScorpio]

Starting stage 6 tonight, last 32days til done with AM5!

[AlphaScorpio]

Day 8 - Stage 6

I'm enjoying stage 6 so far

I have felt these past few days especially today that I don't get anywhere near as defensive when some people tease me, That girl who was shit testing me a while back said some stuff that I previously would've gotten in my head about, but I just let it bounce right off me and even played on the stuff she said and made everyone laugh. Good shit.

Feeling alot more comfortable in my own skin at the moment, I don't mind walking around on my own and I enjoy having company wherever I go as well, seems that people are opening up to me more. I also just like saying whatever the fuck I want as well.

[AlphaScorpio]

shits gone downhill been kicked off my courses at college ran out of petrol on the dual carriageway waiting for my fricken dad to come pick me up after listening to half an hour of him patronizing me about taking responsibility ffs. Wtf is going on. I hate being dependant on parents.

life is fucking me in the ass is the only way I can put it lol. but the only thing I can and want to do is move on and get fucking serious about my future

[SargeMaximus]

Nothing taking responsibility for your life can't fix. Then you'll find you no longer depend on anyone. It can be a hard transition though.

[AlphaScorpio]

As I look back from when I first started AM I think that I have changed somewhat im more social and have a larger circle of friends for sure. But there are definitely some major areas that need to improve laziness, procrastination, feelings of inferiority around certain types of people etc. I still feel my overall confidence is not where i want it to be yet although I think it has improved i still lack getting out of my comfort zone and taking action. AM6 should really help with these things so it'll be my next sub to use

[smoothsam]

As I look back from when I first started AM I think that I have changed somewhat im more social and have a larger circle of friends for sure. But there are definitely some major areas that need to improve laziness, procrastination, feelings of inferiority around certain types of people etc. I still feel my overall confidence is not where i want it to be yet although I think it has improved i still lack getting out of my comfort zone and taking action. AM6 should really help with these things so it'll be my next sub to use

Awesome progress so far. I've learned that when one area of life improves, indirectly other areas improve as well.

[AlphaScorpio]

Currently Day 21 Stage 6

Depending on when AM6 comes out I may run either ASC 5G or Stress relief 5G to see what kind of results they would give me. I feel AM5 has improved some areas of my life but definitely don't feel like it's taken care of everything that it says in the description, but that is expected as I feel I'm a resistant type of person who makes slow progress. However, with AM6 I will be planning on doing Daily faster eft to help overcome resistance as well as Natural grounding to keep my vibe upbeat and clean (won't be watching any porn either).

[AlphaScorpio]

Hmm, I was speaking with my mother today about my little sister who's being bullied at school I said to my mother "I can use this self confidence subliminal to help her stand up to bullies" My mum said "If you use any of those subliminals on her you will be straight out the door" I was like "WTF"
Mum then said "If I noticed any change in you, which I haven't in the past 6 months then I would perhaps let your sister try one but I haven't seen you change at all".
I told my mum that I'm using an Alpha Male sub and that it takes 6 months to do.
This depresses me, because on a deep level I kind of knew it to be true. I think most of this time I've been kidding myself always saying stuff like "Oh don't worry the next stage will have more results" "It's just resistance don't worry" "AM6 will actually work" "It's just my first run through"
I haven't noticed change in my attitude at all since running AM5.

It's odd though, because I did feel the subliminals affected my sleep, they did create some odd dreams that were related to the subliminals, and I did have it where the first week of a new stage I'd feel good and then after feel back to normal/crap. Is it worth running OGSF or would that not have any effect on me either?

I noticed the same thing when I ran ASC5g for 40ish days, The first few days/week I felt great then I felt nothing from then on...

Does Shannon know what kind of resistance this is? I can go into more detail of the patterns I felt during AM.

I'm in despair lol, nothing seems to properly work for me. -_-

Got to admit I'm feeling stressed about this, because I really want it to work, but I know theres something that just isn't clicking. Most of the time I've had this dull/heavy feeling in my stomach area, as if theres energy there but its being suppressed IDK.

I've tried the Faster eft, natural grounding, visualizing but damn, I just don't get much out of it apart from a placebo.

[SargeMaximus]

Wait a minute. What about that girl you had sex with? Wasn't that out of the ordinary?

Hard to believe you got NOTHING out of it.

[AlphaScorpio]

Wait a minute. What about that girl you had sex with? Wasn't that out of the ordinary?

Hard to believe you got NOTHING out of it.

Aha, unfortunately I didn't have sex with her, I said I was planning on doing so but I got ED.

I haven't got nothing from it, but I haven't got very much change either, I still feel the same basically. I've had short term change that either disappears or reverts back to old behaviors/attitudes.

[SargeMaximus]

Wait a minute. What about that girl you had sex with? Wasn't that out of the ordinary?

Hard to believe you got NOTHING out of it.

Aha, unfortunately I didn't have sex with her, I said I was planning on doing so but I got ED.

I haven't got nothing from it, but I haven't got very much change either, I still feel the same basically. I've had short term change that either disappears or reverts back to old behaviors/attitudes.

Interesting. In my case, I just feel like I'm wearing chains in some areas (women and socializing, mostly), while I still feel very confident and comfortable no matter what.

So, I can be around a gorgeous woman, feel comfortable, at ease, confident, but feel a sort of internal prison holding me from anything to do with her. Thinking about her, looking at her, starting to talk to her, it's like it all depends on her and I can't do anything until I have permission.

My coach suggests I look for internal beliefs.

As for your incident, I do remember that, but I thought you two scheduled it for another time?

Either way, sounds like some strong resistance. What do you think causes it or why do you think AM has not been as successful as you would like?