AM 5.0 Journal

[AlphaScorpio]

social anxiety has practically vanished too and no depression whatsoever amazing.

have fun with alpha, ray

[AlphaScorpio]

found out that I had been listening to stage 1 by accident for two nights... decided to start stage 3 again since I was only on the first week. Today is the first day, listened to stage 3 all last night and some through the day.

In other news, had my interview for college today, I felt pretty confident and was honest about what I wanted. made the woman who interviewed me laugh alot. She was not attractive and about 50 years old though LOL. I felt quite in control and taking the lead even though I was the one being interviewed. Had a chat with my parents and basically they said to me that they felt I was in a better state than a few months ago (pre alpha) they didnt use the words "dan's an alpha male" but it was along those lines haha, described me as being more honest, secure in my self etc. so I'm glad about that, feeling independent.

[Sean]

Rock on, brother! This is all good progress.

[AlphaScorpio]

Stage 3 day 5 not noticing too much so far, the common patern is I see small subtle results during the stage then the last week or 5 days iget a big surge of results. pressing on.
another thing to note is that I haven't been listening to the sub as much as I'd like to partly because I have been out socializing with old friends and also because I rip my headphones off in my sleep sometimes which is annoying. I have got a fairly free week this week until Friday so I'll be listening allot in the day. I often get this feeling of wanting to stop the sub and take my headphones off but I think this is just another pocket of resistance. as far as becoming alpha is concerned I'm not experiencing shit loads of epic confidence as I was a few days ago and I haven't got girls begging me to hang around them but I am feeling like people are respecting me and not abusing my time. yesterday I pulled up to my old school on the motorbike with my letathers on and all that to surprise my friends, let's just say I got a few "woah who the fuck is that dude" looks from people lol. my friends even said how badass it looked, I didn't care I just smiled. I have noticed the things that were introduced in the first two stages are just feeling like I've always had them, it doesn't shock and surprise me like when I fittest experienced them. looking forward to see what this stage will bring

[adventurousman]

Generally I prefer that people be 18 or older before they start AM because AM will make one of two things happen for most people who are not living on their own. Either it will cause all sorts of fights and issues with parents or guardians as you become what you are becoming... or it will make you miserable and depressed if you refuse to face your fears and the people who are preventing you from being who you are and achieving your full potential.

Also, don't expect AM 5 will "sort you emotionally" in one run through. Most of us, me included, have needed more than once. I've run every version that has come out plus one that was never released, and the results have been awesome, but it takes time. Much less time, to be sure, but time. 2-3 run throughs is usual, and you'll keep improving with each one you do even after that.

So you may want to wait until you're not living with parents, because the journey can be hard on them, just as it can be hard on you. Things are expected to be chaotic, confusing and changing in college as you and everyone around you are all in the same boat, growing and changing fast. I can understand how you would want to gain some strength first, but again... consider the consequences while you are under someone else's thumb legally. 18 is the recommended minimum age for starting AM for that reason.

Presuming things are like this over the pond...

So u r saying it'll take 2-3 runs meaning once u listen to it for 6 months, u start again and then start again? That will take 1.5 years. Sometimes u r traveling, staying somewhere else, how can u possibly manage to listen to it everyday for 8-12hrs for 1.5 years?

And shouldn't the results be permanent after 6 months?

[SexyMofo]

@ adventurousman - We all didnt know how to walk, before we first knew how to rollover our bellies and crawl. And that process takes more than a year to be accomplished and a lifetime to perfect coz even though we're already adults we still slip and fall. For me, 1.5 years is rather a small speck in time. I have thrown countless of earphones since I started and I can say I am quite far from the person that I was then. The journey itself would be the greatest gift you could give to yourself.

[AlphaScorpio]

so I've decided to stop a few things such as masturbation and porn as I feel this saps my desires in life which leaves me with little motivation, at the beginning of stage 3ihad an intense desire to watch porn but after a few days I've felt less drive which I hate so stopping both masturbation and porn for at least 90days taking it a week at a time. cause I have little desire to go out and get a girlfriend or a fwb. I think I'm a bit of an addictive personality I'm quite extreme, I'd like a little more balance in my life. have gotten into a few bad habbits recently such as drinking(not too much), smoking and caffeine I want true happiness from accomplishing things in life not from little mood boosters. stage 3 day 7

[Shannon]

And shouldn't the results be permanent after 6 months?

The results are permanent to the degree that they become self perpetuating after any given period of time. The conscious is influencing your subconscious to make changes according to how your subconscious naturally builds its "operating system" from all the most frequently experienced stimuli in your life. The outer world then adjusts to match the inner. But it takes time, and the stimuli are not static: if you normally hear that you are stupid 10 times a day, then over time, the sub telling you otherwise will be overridden if you stop using it, or unless and until you internalize the reverse and begin generating a new reality in which you are no longer receiving that stimulus externally, and/or are now strong enough to reject it instead of accept it.

[adventurousman]

Did u mean conscious influencing subconscious? Or subconscious influencing subconscious? I don't get that.

If we consciously tell ourselves who we're, what we do and what happens to us and what we've even though there is no evidence to it (currently) but we're creating it aren't we? At the same time refusing to believe the negative messages and changing it with positive ones.

I guess we can combine this with affirmations/visualization, rite?

We can't just rely on subs to do all the work while we're being negative throughout the day or letting the world effect our mood.

[Shannon]

I meant that the conscious affects the subconscious. I've changed it.

I'm not sure I follow you, but basically what I am saying is that the subconscious accepts anything that gets into it as true, and it appears to categorize these experiences into "piles" of repetitions for each one. The one with the most repetitions, or the most emotional impact per repetition, will be dominant, and for that particular subject is what the mind uses for the program we automatically execute subconsciously.

If you believe you are ugly, then you are going to change your outer world to match that belief. You will define what you see in the mirror as "ugly", you will act as if you are ugly, you will dress according to what you believe "ugly" is, and you will do all this without ever even realizing it is happening. The subconscious believes you are ugly, so it executes those things that lead to you being, or at least perpetuating the belief that you are ugly. Even if you're a 10+ in the eyes of everyone around you. The inward reality becomes the outward reality.

This phenomenon is in action all day, every day, with every person. Whatever you experience outwardly is a direct reflection of what you believe inwardly, at a subconscious level.

Combining subs with creative visualization and affirmations is okay as long as there is no conflict between them. Since it takes some training to know where such conflict would exist, and you don't have access to all my scripts, it's not recommended that you use affirmations with my subs... but some people do.

If you're trying to use a positive thinking sub, and trying to be negative all day, you will create conflict. The sub, if properly used and properly made, will win.

[AlphaScorpio]

had a weird day today, met an old friend who I've previously been very close with . went skating on top of some roof tops for a while before he said he had to go see his girlfriend at the bottom of the building for a bit cause she was leaving for a week soon. so he left all his stuff with me at the top on my own and went down to meet her. after about 10 minutes I was getting impatient with him wasting my time and also needed the toilet so I went to the toilet in the carpark and took all his stuff with me. came back and met him to give him his stuff back and realized I had lost his walllet I apologized and took full responsibility but he kept moaning and called me an idiot for loosing it which I did not accept I said to him look I've said sorry and taken full responsibility for losing it sometimes shit happens, but there's no reason calling me an idiot and getting in a pissy about it when its all ready happrned.

so later on we meet some other mates and he carries on being obnoxious and in a huff with me. igot defensive and started getting in my head about it all and finally when we went separate ways I said to him text me when you're coming out tomorrow he murmered yes whilst looking away and carried on walking so I called him out again saying in a louder tone "ed!, I said text me when you're coming out" to which he turned around and said "yes I heard and I said yes" needs to show some more respect.
guessing stage 3 has still got the calling people out on their shit stuff in. I'm in a n annoyed mood right now. I just don't take disrespect or bad looks off people, it's not acceptable.

[AlphaScorpio]

Question for Shannon, Can I use the Stress Relief subliminal alongside stage 3 of AM without them conflicting?

[Fonzy3]

Yeah man don't ever let anyone talk to you that way, everyone knows what goes around comes around. Relationships are more important than a wallet so just make sure you take the high road when you guys are on better terms.

Thanks

Fonzy

[AlphaScorpio]

Stage 3: Day 8 - I'm having a hard time at the moment, I'm getting some fairly heavy resistance to this stage I can feel my mind resisting the change. For the past few days I've been feeling more like my old self and I can kind of feel my self respect, self entitlement and confidence slipping, I'm finding it hard to ask for things from other people, finding it hard to speak my mind and I just feel a little trapped in my body being sucked in to other peoples realities almost instantly, I don't get anxiety but I do feel some sort of emotion that's holding me back most likely fear mixed with shame/anger. I am conscious of my thoughts changing from previously "I don't care whatever happens, It'll be fine" to "But what if". Also noticed my body language is automatically closed, I look at the floor more and I get defensive and irritable. This stuff is painstaking, feels like I've taken 2 steps forward, then 1 step back.