12-22-2020, 11:05 PM
(12-20-2020, 09:28 AM)fab10 Wrote: Thanks for encouraging me to post sir. I love your user name, if you really are a magical alchemist, please share some secrets with me.
Stage 4 has not been kind on me, I know there’s a lot of shit I have to work through but it wasn’t much fun. However, I always experience more unpleasant side effects than most, no doubt due to a long history of trauma and abuse, nobody should be too concerned about my negative experiences. I have come to accept that for real healing it often gets worse for me before it gets better. I’m glad I’m done with stage 4 though, I’m on day 6 of stage 5 now.
Stage 4 report
In stage 4 my physical health declined- a lot of problems I had in the past resurfaced, including the tension neck pain I hoped I had gotten rid of for good (it’s most likely body armoring.) Also some cold like symptoms, very mild, while I hadn’t had a cold or a flu in a decade (ask me how, lol.)
Reading other users’ experiences, I finally connected a dull pain in my lower back with the sub, it had been there for a couple of months but I never reported it since it was minor and I had attributed to something else. It feels completely different from my neck pain, this is dull and it feels like the back being tired or a mild strain from lifting a heavy weight, while the neck pain is sharp and very intense.
By the end of stage 4, the pain in the lower back subsided.
I also had the worst fight ever with my partner toward the end of stage 4 and a pretty juice fight with my mother too, especially the latter is partly caused by not having the full strength DRS any more.
Stage 5 so far (day 6)
In this first cycle, the sub-related lower back pain came back, but it’s very mild, while my chronic neck pain is improving again. That’s great news because the neck pain is major and a real problem while the lower back pain is a mild and temporary side effect which proves that the sub is working, as Shannon explained.
My emotional state is stable despite the horrible situation we’re in with this damn virus- no travel, no work, less money, no leaving the house, no entertaining, one friend and one acquaintance dead. I cannot report an emotional improvement but I am positive that the sub is keeping me sane, while I haven’t used any anxiety medication that was prescribed to me “when needed”.
No extraordinary new success and luck except maybe for some minor bitcoin gains.
Hey @fab10
Your report very much detail to give me information what LTUv6 doing here. Hopefully you recover from physical pain it comes from sub related (LTUv6).
(12-20-2020, 09:28 AM)fab10 Wrote: I do miss the full strength stand-alone DRS when interacting with my mother (the worst vampire on earth)-she managed to get to me in a way that hadn’t happened for a long time. I asked Shannon and I now run one loop of DRS before and during my interactions with her. It might distract my focus from the other LTU components a bit but my situation of being constantly under attack calls for a maximum strength shield as my highest priority. Introducing DRS means that I had to shelf OE for the time being, it’s a pity but it became a lower priority. I hope I’ll find a window to run it next year.
And yes, DRS stand-alone very powerfull in my experience. In my case when i'm in period using DRS, my mother doesn't talk much and tends to be silent. After i'm not longer using DRS, she's very easily angry with me or sometimes she's give me negative words and action towards me.
(12-20-2020, 09:28 AM)fab10 Wrote: Good luck with your LTU journey Magical Alchemist, you have an amazing product in your hands, I am looking forward to reading your reports.
You will probably have some good days and some bad days, and at some point it’s possible that you’ll find a “good reason” to quit (or change sub or otherwise sabotage your journey), because the sub works so deeply that it sometimes triggers strong unconscious resistance and fear. I promise I’ll kick your ass if that happens.
Thank you for the encouragement sir, Maybe i want to build the foundation first like OFv2 before jumping to biggest sub like LTUv6, i'm afraid LTU doesn't work well on me when i'm still holding irrational fear.
