A Sexy Alex, stage 2: DMSI Journal (now 3.3.2!)

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Hello @muze  , thanks for dropping by and making an effort to read my longer recent posts on this DMSI thread!

The biggest wall of text was mainly to summarize my thought processes going into listening to DMSI as my full time sub of choice during that period, give an extremely summarized account of possibly related events and regimens, and attempt some retrospection on what I could have done better to help make my goals happen, or even if such a thing was in my power at all or able to be understood by me in my mental state.

To clarify, I understand quite well that, under ideal conditions, money or other similar forms of wealth are meant to be indicators of status and complementary to a chosen lifestyle rather than being elevated as equivalent to or greater than status as an attraction factor as it is commonly being treated as now. My lament was that the women in question were only concerned with what my money/I can do for them with no reward for me, proportional to my input or not, and either paid little to no attention to the rest of me or explicitly chose to ignore such.

Rereading my previous post, it occurs to me just now that I never fully explained why I chose money to be the focus of significant chunks of my subliminal audio endeavors. Besides the stuff common to most Westerners, particularly Americans, re mindsets and behaviors related to money, to summarize extremely I grew up in poverty and there are significant chunks of my life, including now, where I haven't had income or the income I did have was so insignificant that taxes, other expenses, and the focus on "keeping the job" actually made it worse than not having a job at all. My desire to have beautiful women doesn't go away when my money does, and over time I had developed "must accept me primarily as a lover rather than provider" as a screening condition in anticipation of times where I had/have no income, for better or worse.