I am surprised that you are feeling guilty. I, myself, used a pirated version and haven't paid for it yet. That, of course, I intend to do pay for it in the future when I can. But I haven't personally felt any guilt or shame over it. If you ask me, would I have pirated it if I knew about AP code? Yes! Because I know I will pay for it, sooner or later.
Anyway, leaving that aside, I am sorry to hear that you are feeling depressed, I know the feels. Hang in tight there, man.
Anyway, leaving that aside, I am sorry to hear that you are feeling depressed, I know the feels. Hang in tight there, man.