Thinking about it more, UD may have more benefits in the long term. Of course there's the emotional stuff i've been working on.
But also an issue with candida that's annoyed me for years. I've pretty much got it under control, but it pops up every now and then to annoy me. Itchy ears, itchy red spots in my beard recently.
I also believe it's one thing that affects my energy negatively, and it may be responsible for some of my cloudy and light headedness. Though I also realized the cloudy head was related to trauma because it's got better since I was on E2 and was doing TRE and Somatic Experiencing, and it come up directly during those sessions at times.
And I feel it's also been strangling my sex drive a bit. During DMSI i've noticed it come up a couple of times, but never consistent and nowhere near as strong as it used to be.
So maybe i've adjusted to it and I don't notice it makes me feel shit and i'm used to a kind of low level of energy. So it feels 'normal' but isn't ideal at all, especially since i'm eating the healthiest I have in my life and how fit I am. And for this issue doctors are incredibly useless, one suggested antibiotics. But taking antibiotics for other things made the candida worse every time.
I'm mainly trying to analyze this in my head, UD vs working on money.
Seems UD would be more beneficial in the long term though it will delay movement in the area I need mostly to move forward.
It's mainly the uncertainty that gets me. And fear of investing another large chunk of time into something that doesn't get me where I want.
But also an issue with candida that's annoyed me for years. I've pretty much got it under control, but it pops up every now and then to annoy me. Itchy ears, itchy red spots in my beard recently.
I also believe it's one thing that affects my energy negatively, and it may be responsible for some of my cloudy and light headedness. Though I also realized the cloudy head was related to trauma because it's got better since I was on E2 and was doing TRE and Somatic Experiencing, and it come up directly during those sessions at times.
And I feel it's also been strangling my sex drive a bit. During DMSI i've noticed it come up a couple of times, but never consistent and nowhere near as strong as it used to be.
So maybe i've adjusted to it and I don't notice it makes me feel shit and i'm used to a kind of low level of energy. So it feels 'normal' but isn't ideal at all, especially since i'm eating the healthiest I have in my life and how fit I am. And for this issue doctors are incredibly useless, one suggested antibiotics. But taking antibiotics for other things made the candida worse every time.
I'm mainly trying to analyze this in my head, UD vs working on money.
Seems UD would be more beneficial in the long term though it will delay movement in the area I need mostly to move forward.
It's mainly the uncertainty that gets me. And fear of investing another large chunk of time into something that doesn't get me where I want.
