It's mainly because of the subject matter of AM at this point, and i'd likely try the refresher stage because I don't think I can go through the pedanticness of having to make sure I keep every Stage the exact same amount of listening for 32 days and all that. Especially after doing AM for a year.
UD is probably the best step forward to continue healing those issues I started focusing on the last few months. But what I really need to work on to move forward in life is to earn more money, so it's a tossup between a bit longer on healing with UD because those issues are still kind of 'fresh' and not totally solved. But I just feel like i've been in one place for so long just focusing on healing and feeling like i'll never see the end of it.
Another sidenote, today I noticed my desire to build more muscle again. I haven't had that for ages. On DMSI I kind of didn't care much, was complacent, still went to the gym but not much drive, didn't care about building more muscle. Like with protein shakes it makes me wonder if it was a potential reversal response, because generally more muscular means more attractive. Of course to a certain point, i'm not talking about freak level.. but in general it does.
It feels like programs with healing put me in a state like that where there isn't exactly forward 'growth' whether it be the gym, money or whatever.. but just internal stuff happening, and like E2 getting off DMSI things are possibly reawakening.
But the theory is after proper healing things can take off way better without the baggage. But I fear going and doing UD now.. it will just have me being stuck in place again for 3-6 months.
UD is probably the best step forward to continue healing those issues I started focusing on the last few months. But what I really need to work on to move forward in life is to earn more money, so it's a tossup between a bit longer on healing with UD because those issues are still kind of 'fresh' and not totally solved. But I just feel like i've been in one place for so long just focusing on healing and feeling like i'll never see the end of it.
Another sidenote, today I noticed my desire to build more muscle again. I haven't had that for ages. On DMSI I kind of didn't care much, was complacent, still went to the gym but not much drive, didn't care about building more muscle. Like with protein shakes it makes me wonder if it was a potential reversal response, because generally more muscular means more attractive. Of course to a certain point, i'm not talking about freak level.. but in general it does.
It feels like programs with healing put me in a state like that where there isn't exactly forward 'growth' whether it be the gym, money or whatever.. but just internal stuff happening, and like E2 getting off DMSI things are possibly reawakening.
But the theory is after proper healing things can take off way better without the baggage. But I fear going and doing UD now.. it will just have me being stuck in place again for 3-6 months.
