Went out last night with a new friend, and for probably the first time ever I actually went out and enjoyed it without specifically looking for girls. Just chatted to people, hung out, I did talk to a few girls but just when it come up.. but I wasn't sitting there obsessing about it.
That was good. I don't really feel like typing long reports about going out anymore.
And now today the neediness for girls is at a high.. more than in a while atleast. A whole new wave of anger at girls come up too. I even went and looking at a few dating sites which made all those feelings worse.
And then I checked how long it had been. It feels like a very long time but it's only been 5 weeks since I decided I was taking a break from girls.
I can't just seem to relax and focus on something else.. all these thoughts of needing them, frustration and such welling up in my body.
I was trying not to do too much today, some days I go into these feelings more times but yesterday I did a pretty intense process so i've just done the normal amount i'd do today.
But sitting here I keep being drawn to do so.. i'll just see where it leads me then.
That was good. I don't really feel like typing long reports about going out anymore.
And now today the neediness for girls is at a high.. more than in a while atleast. A whole new wave of anger at girls come up too. I even went and looking at a few dating sites which made all those feelings worse.
And then I checked how long it had been. It feels like a very long time but it's only been 5 weeks since I decided I was taking a break from girls.
I can't just seem to relax and focus on something else.. all these thoughts of needing them, frustration and such welling up in my body.
I was trying not to do too much today, some days I go into these feelings more times but yesterday I did a pretty intense process so i've just done the normal amount i'd do today.
But sitting here I keep being drawn to do so.. i'll just see where it leads me then.
