Looks like i've reached a deeper level of the core wounded emotions.
Though i'm feeling better since a few days ago, i'm still a little confused. Knowing there's 'something' there but not really having much come up.
After dialoguing i'm still being told to mainly focus on the core emotions such as abandonment, rejection and such.
Then I explored that and found some new intensity. The difference is that before I was mainly working on all the feelings of rejection from other people i've had in my life, which was pretty intense and painful.
Today what come up was "rejection of myself". Which I can see is the next level below that. And it definately goes along with the whole 'holding onto something and projecting it out onto the world'.
I even just looked back through my list of things i've been exploring and it confirms it, it seems all the work I was doing on painful feelings of rejection were mainly what I felt being rejected by others and this seems to be the first time I found "rejection of myself".
I'd say that's progress. In the end Inner Bonding says it comes down to how you're treating yourself.. so I can see the progression here.
But the thing is I couldn't directly access it and goto it and skip the feelings of rejection from others, it seems I had to confront that, deal with it for this to come up.
Still thinking more about girls than in a few weeks, i'd say that has to do with these new feelings coming up. But some of it could also be 6 loops kicking in and bringing up motivation to be with girls, especially with the 3 or 4 dreams about sex last night.
While it's tempting to change my journal to 'A Journey To WhoReness'. There's still these wounded emotions to deal with.
Though i'm feeling better since a few days ago, i'm still a little confused. Knowing there's 'something' there but not really having much come up.
After dialoguing i'm still being told to mainly focus on the core emotions such as abandonment, rejection and such.
Then I explored that and found some new intensity. The difference is that before I was mainly working on all the feelings of rejection from other people i've had in my life, which was pretty intense and painful.
Today what come up was "rejection of myself". Which I can see is the next level below that. And it definately goes along with the whole 'holding onto something and projecting it out onto the world'.
I even just looked back through my list of things i've been exploring and it confirms it, it seems all the work I was doing on painful feelings of rejection were mainly what I felt being rejected by others and this seems to be the first time I found "rejection of myself".
I'd say that's progress. In the end Inner Bonding says it comes down to how you're treating yourself.. so I can see the progression here.
But the thing is I couldn't directly access it and goto it and skip the feelings of rejection from others, it seems I had to confront that, deal with it for this to come up.
Still thinking more about girls than in a few weeks, i'd say that has to do with these new feelings coming up. But some of it could also be 6 loops kicking in and bringing up motivation to be with girls, especially with the 3 or 4 dreams about sex last night.
While it's tempting to change my journal to 'A Journey To WhoReness'. There's still these wounded emotions to deal with.
