07-15-2017, 05:55 PM
I woke up feeling way more relaxed today.
But it was interesting, I installed POF and tinder again in my frustration yesterday. I messaged 1 girl and checked when I got into bed and she replied. All of a sudden I felt good, cam and peaceful.
And i'm like "fuck.. i'm only feeling this because I got a positive response" and then thought more "Well actually, i'm creating this myself it's just the external outside response that seems to be triggering it.. I wonder if I could learn to actually create these feelings in myself and be grounded in them instead of expecting them from the outside?".
I haven't replied back. In fact I considered that right now doing this work it is most likely a better idea to disconnect from girls completely because that's when all those feelings come up, and if there is girls I can't know if i'm feeling good, calm and 'complete' temporarily just because they showed positive attention.
But it's hard to let go that she seemed pretty interested in her reply back.
But it was interesting, I installed POF and tinder again in my frustration yesterday. I messaged 1 girl and checked when I got into bed and she replied. All of a sudden I felt good, cam and peaceful.
And i'm like "fuck.. i'm only feeling this because I got a positive response" and then thought more "Well actually, i'm creating this myself it's just the external outside response that seems to be triggering it.. I wonder if I could learn to actually create these feelings in myself and be grounded in them instead of expecting them from the outside?".
I haven't replied back. In fact I considered that right now doing this work it is most likely a better idea to disconnect from girls completely because that's when all those feelings come up, and if there is girls I can't know if i'm feeling good, calm and 'complete' temporarily just because they showed positive attention.
But it's hard to let go that she seemed pretty interested in her reply back.
