06-26-2017, 11:42 PM
Quote:That B @ 5 loops is definitely hitting a nerve. Sounds like you're making significant progress.
Glad you think so, because it doesn't feel like much progress to me. Since switching to B i've felt worse socially, my confidence, and kind of feel more disconnected around people.
Like at the gym there was a few sexy girls but I just didn't feel like focusing on them, more just did my workout. But it wasn't in a positive way where I was properly focused, it was more like some barrier there that I wasn't feeling before.
I had started to naturally talk to them more again on A but since B I struggle to do so, it's not like a massive fear but it's like despite even times i've felt good internally it's like I haven't had the energy to reach out.
I hope you're right and it clears soon and I see what is happening, but at the moment it feels like a step back.
Here's a really weird thing, I mentioned really wanting coffee yesterday.. I eventually had a coffee because I usually do on monday before the gym as i'm a little more tired after weekends. Before it I felt horrible, cloudy headed and such. I had the coffee and all of a sudden it all cleared up and I felt much better.
Quote:I've had the gym weakness too. Just came back from there and was thinking "Wtf happened to me?" Must be a ver B thing.
It seems more mental than actual physical because i've noticed when I get to the gym i've been okay and lifted the same, even while 'feeling' weak while doing it.
Quote:It results from the parts of the subconscious who are really unhappy with doing what the script is specifying, trying to withdraw and hide.
That makes sense, the gym part and also feeling like I am more withdrawn and disconnected socially. Also the feeling of not really wanting to go places I was going before, feeling like there's no point.
It's different compared to say on AM6 there was alot of intensity, frustration and such at these times. On DMSI i'm just feeling weak, fatigued, low energy.
