The pressure around the eyes has continued all day. I'm tired and yawning but also have a strange energy connected to that which makes me feel like if I goto bed I won't get much sleep. It kind of feels like i'm overtired but hopped up on stimulants.
A thought related to my last post.
Assuming it was the thing that triggered the problem, that girls post on my timeline last night come at the 'perfect' (for lack of better word) time to fuck it all up for me.
Kind of like it was brought up to cause some kind of development or learning for the process. I had that thought earlier when I eventually got to "Well I really can't control what happened in this case, so why am I stressing out over it?".
Though if I go to another level I also caused it myself by trying to go for that girl in a moment of desperation when I thought things were going bad and messaging her on facebook.. though I decided not to pursue it in the end i'm responsible for some of it.
That doesn't necessarily mean i'm over it, but that seems to be the learning connected to it. I had the thought earlier that I wish I stayed with Version A because then things would be okay still and this shit wouldn't have happened. As coincidentally last time I switched to Version B was when the same girl went weird and started cancelling on me after never doing so before. This time on B it got even more extreme with her totally blocking me.
A thought related to my last post.
Assuming it was the thing that triggered the problem, that girls post on my timeline last night come at the 'perfect' (for lack of better word) time to fuck it all up for me.
Kind of like it was brought up to cause some kind of development or learning for the process. I had that thought earlier when I eventually got to "Well I really can't control what happened in this case, so why am I stressing out over it?".
Though if I go to another level I also caused it myself by trying to go for that girl in a moment of desperation when I thought things were going bad and messaging her on facebook.. though I decided not to pursue it in the end i'm responsible for some of it.
That doesn't necessarily mean i'm over it, but that seems to be the learning connected to it. I had the thought earlier that I wish I stayed with Version A because then things would be okay still and this shit wouldn't have happened. As coincidentally last time I switched to Version B was when the same girl went weird and started cancelling on me after never doing so before. This time on B it got even more extreme with her totally blocking me.
