Ahh fuck.. this is why I understandably have anger towards girls.
I sent her "So what was it now then?". And I just get blocked. WTF. After messaging me several times which I ignored in the last few months, then actually answering her and she wants to meet up, sends me a photo of her ass.
Then today this.. I sent her an sms telling her she's retarded. From E2 and DMSI I no longer care about well meaning advice that tells you not do tell them off like that, because though she probably won't answer it discharges it for me. I was really angry and now expressing it instead of holding onto it half an hour later i'm feeling alot better.
I can't really know, but the thing I can think of is another girl fucking it up for me. When I had conflict with the current girl and thought it was over, another girl on facebook showed interest.. she's liked me for ages. I posted a thing about putting googly eyes on stuff and she replied and I said as a joke "Are you gonna do it?" and she's like "only if you join me" I talked to her a bit and tried to organize to meet but she didn't seem to commit and I realized i'm not keen for her anyway. Then last night posted a meme about putting googly eyes on vibrators and said "can we do this?".
Anyway, the girl who I was gonna see today a while ago we put googly eyes on things. When she messaged me a few weeks ago she sent me the same article saying "This reminds me of you, I miss doing fun things like that with you".
So this other girl posting on my facebook timeline about it I assume she would have seen it and thought i'm seeing this other girl which i'm not, because it comes across like that. And I assume in her mind it's like she thought it was something special between us which it was, and she might think I was doing the same with this other girl.
So i'm pissed off about the other girl doing that. She could have easily sent me the meme in a message, but she posted it publicly on my timeline then didn't reply to my comment on it.. which tells me it's just looking for attention.
Unfortunately it was just a moment where I was weak and feeling needy that I briefly considered meeting up with her then I thought and realized I have no interest in her, now she does that and fucks this other thing up for me.
Anyway, the thing that tends to fuck my head up the most is just not knowing WHY.. I can guess it might be that thing but I can never confirm it.
Alot of things are pissing me off today.. I was getting past it but my wanting to argue with people needlessly who i'll never convince because they are SJW types is strong today. And at some idiot who I used to work with white knighting having a go at me because the person I was arguing with was a woman basically. I just ended up blocking him because he would always try to have a dig at me in the past like when i'd post progress shots when I was losing most of my weight.
I need to disconnect and try to take my mind off things, I tried to go out somewhere but it's a cold day so that eliminates most places to go around here during the day.
I sent her "So what was it now then?". And I just get blocked. WTF. After messaging me several times which I ignored in the last few months, then actually answering her and she wants to meet up, sends me a photo of her ass.
Then today this.. I sent her an sms telling her she's retarded. From E2 and DMSI I no longer care about well meaning advice that tells you not do tell them off like that, because though she probably won't answer it discharges it for me. I was really angry and now expressing it instead of holding onto it half an hour later i'm feeling alot better.
I can't really know, but the thing I can think of is another girl fucking it up for me. When I had conflict with the current girl and thought it was over, another girl on facebook showed interest.. she's liked me for ages. I posted a thing about putting googly eyes on stuff and she replied and I said as a joke "Are you gonna do it?" and she's like "only if you join me" I talked to her a bit and tried to organize to meet but she didn't seem to commit and I realized i'm not keen for her anyway. Then last night posted a meme about putting googly eyes on vibrators and said "can we do this?".
Anyway, the girl who I was gonna see today a while ago we put googly eyes on things. When she messaged me a few weeks ago she sent me the same article saying "This reminds me of you, I miss doing fun things like that with you".
So this other girl posting on my facebook timeline about it I assume she would have seen it and thought i'm seeing this other girl which i'm not, because it comes across like that. And I assume in her mind it's like she thought it was something special between us which it was, and she might think I was doing the same with this other girl.
So i'm pissed off about the other girl doing that. She could have easily sent me the meme in a message, but she posted it publicly on my timeline then didn't reply to my comment on it.. which tells me it's just looking for attention.
Unfortunately it was just a moment where I was weak and feeling needy that I briefly considered meeting up with her then I thought and realized I have no interest in her, now she does that and fucks this other thing up for me.
Anyway, the thing that tends to fuck my head up the most is just not knowing WHY.. I can guess it might be that thing but I can never confirm it.
Alot of things are pissing me off today.. I was getting past it but my wanting to argue with people needlessly who i'll never convince because they are SJW types is strong today. And at some idiot who I used to work with white knighting having a go at me because the person I was arguing with was a woman basically. I just ended up blocking him because he would always try to have a dig at me in the past like when i'd post progress shots when I was losing most of my weight.
I need to disconnect and try to take my mind off things, I tried to go out somewhere but it's a cold day so that eliminates most places to go around here during the day.
