02-21-2017, 08:04 PM
At home all week alone, decided to smoke some weed to get myself to study. The weed uncovered a lot of underlying stuff. A surge of anxiety hit me and I got into an extreme introspective mode questioning my life and how I am so lazy and irresponsible despite having everything around me to succeed. Went on to get angry at myself for being so closed off and tights with everyone around when I'm my sober self.
Have a lot of catching up to do on school-work but it's very hard to get myself to do it. Woke up this morning at 9:30am after a 10hr sleep still feeling sluggish. The sub is being played strictly at night for fear that it will drain the little energy I already have. Man I could really use an Adderall right now, sometimes I wonder if I really do have ADD.
Have a lot of catching up to do on school-work but it's very hard to get myself to do it. Woke up this morning at 9:30am after a 10hr sleep still feeling sluggish. The sub is being played strictly at night for fear that it will drain the little energy I already have. Man I could really use an Adderall right now, sometimes I wonder if I really do have ADD.
"I don't want to be a product of my environment....I want my environment to be a product of me."
