Tbh, I dont know if I will journal anymore. It gives way for me in analyzing and thus engaging the rational mind instead of full immersion and raw experiencing of emotions. Tbh, it feels like progress.
This is said video and would recommend it to everyone, subs or no subs.
I was listening/watching transformation mastery "infield" from julien blanc in which he also said "dont analyze, verbalize whats going on" Its almost like cornering myself like Shannon did the plugging of escapes. Its head on head first with myself without excuses. It also gives me an edge prolly. Tbh its addictive and I want to make this a habit. To be and experience without front involved.
I felt a sort of separation going on. One is the front, but there was/is a lingering "undercurrent/underflow". Authenticity. Something clicks and am emotional as f*ck right now.
Getting to the heart.
To add: im hit with realisations almost on a continuous basis. Experience that happened a few days ago and which left me reeled/feelin betrayed is reframed. Its an attitude of pure welcoming/processing whatever comes up and realizing it cannot hurt me in the end. This stuff is beyond powerfull if you ask me.
I love hearing people their baggage now. Like take it all in /admit it all. Huuuuge shift. The video of transformation mastery surely brought me some tears yet authenticity is felt and connected with. Confidence is realized and im connecting with more and more things inside and coming to terms with "I AM"
On the UMS TID (?) front. It has changed drastically. As I wrote in the UMS idea thread, im feeling wealthy like its my baseline. Big m*therfucking contrast. Music consist of migos, quavo, offset, a$ap rocky and other more "mainstream" artists. Choices are a mayor key role in this. My choice making is shifting/shifted.
This is said video and would recommend it to everyone, subs or no subs.
I was listening/watching transformation mastery "infield" from julien blanc in which he also said "dont analyze, verbalize whats going on" Its almost like cornering myself like Shannon did the plugging of escapes. Its head on head first with myself without excuses. It also gives me an edge prolly. Tbh its addictive and I want to make this a habit. To be and experience without front involved.
I felt a sort of separation going on. One is the front, but there was/is a lingering "undercurrent/underflow". Authenticity. Something clicks and am emotional as f*ck right now.
Getting to the heart.
To add: im hit with realisations almost on a continuous basis. Experience that happened a few days ago and which left me reeled/feelin betrayed is reframed. Its an attitude of pure welcoming/processing whatever comes up and realizing it cannot hurt me in the end. This stuff is beyond powerfull if you ask me.
I love hearing people their baggage now. Like take it all in /admit it all. Huuuuge shift. The video of transformation mastery surely brought me some tears yet authenticity is felt and connected with. Confidence is realized and im connecting with more and more things inside and coming to terms with "I AM"
On the UMS TID (?) front. It has changed drastically. As I wrote in the UMS idea thread, im feeling wealthy like its my baseline. Big m*therfucking contrast. Music consist of migos, quavo, offset, a$ap rocky and other more "mainstream" artists. Choices are a mayor key role in this. My choice making is shifting/shifted.
