3.3.1-D abundance, women, grandiosity, success

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To add;

FRM "forces" me to be honest with myself, my desires aswell. Through the day I felt aroused ( in my mind my crotch area lights up with a red dot ) and im getting used to it. Appreciating it. Getting comfortable with it.
FRM also causes me to suddenly get it ( the fear ) and owning it up.

Have you read about chakras? The root chakra, which is our most fundamental chakra and is blocked by fear, is represented by a red sphere. Just thought that you could be interested as you described it.