I keep changing leaps and bounds. More fear is removed and one of them was
"Fear of going out" that one is gone and caught on the spot.
Having a huge headache whole day on the left side of my head. Im looking forward to running my loops once again.
My ego seems to struggle for survival. Now, on 3.3 I at times feel dissolving/melting away in oneness. It weird. My fear around "losing my identity" is also brought to light. Its like equal to death. Let go, release on release.
Another is, the fear when going out is rooted in beliefs. I also am tracing back the fear around women and seems to go pretty far back as far as Im concerned and aware.
I remember a period I didnt care about women to begin with. Or rather, it felt like a burden/didnt saw any use in it. Yeah go figure how it catches up now.
Also, in Tiger's journal, there was talk about alpha and being talked down upon by said "friend" with running these subs, having celebrity effect, rising in ( perceived) status ( this is a huge one! ) insecurities are exposed, and yes, this will shake things up. A guy I know for a long time and with whom I met up last time, flipped out over the program 'ex on the beach'. It doesnt affect anyone, but it was like he went off, like a bull on a red flag. The toxity and vileness coming from him was almost tastable in the air. Now, it was not the words he said ( sluts ) but the way he said it, was downright repulsive. Its a huge wall thrown up in the seduction process if you ask me.
It shows it bringing down group value and this toxity is a hindrance for group perceived value.
Now, coming back to the tension im feeling that are tied to beliefs ( im interested what they are, cant recall ) and by recignizing it as so, I felt suddenly bulletproof/unstoppable.
Felt daddy as fuck and the shift was profound. Wherever I go, my interactions have seductive qualities.
Z who goes overt sexual. W who is way more engaging and give me puppy bowl like eyes. E who is way more looking up to me and physical. I who is seducing and seduced. Im feeling effin great to say to least.
Also, I am aware how I operated on a "needy" kind of vibe. Its shifted to giving and none is lost. Its a win and a release of tension.
Im pretty confident and sure im executing and will be executing. Some big things ate dealt with, some holes closed off ( no pun intended...or is it?) and FRM is effwctive yet want it to go even faster at times as I have a hard time understanding how some fears can be so fucking stubborn.
When I started running DMSI, I thought the flip was easy, like flipping a switch, getting me out of a funk/state, like a lightswitch, just "out of shape" but hey, DMSI is so much more.
- And women keep calling me daddy - ( the fuck? )
Im also realizing im still holding on some negativity. Its unattractive in the end, also...why?
Im having more going on, but I wont delve into it, due to several board/forum rules. I can but wont.
"Fear of going out" that one is gone and caught on the spot.
Having a huge headache whole day on the left side of my head. Im looking forward to running my loops once again.
My ego seems to struggle for survival. Now, on 3.3 I at times feel dissolving/melting away in oneness. It weird. My fear around "losing my identity" is also brought to light. Its like equal to death. Let go, release on release.
Another is, the fear when going out is rooted in beliefs. I also am tracing back the fear around women and seems to go pretty far back as far as Im concerned and aware.
I remember a period I didnt care about women to begin with. Or rather, it felt like a burden/didnt saw any use in it. Yeah go figure how it catches up now.
Also, in Tiger's journal, there was talk about alpha and being talked down upon by said "friend" with running these subs, having celebrity effect, rising in ( perceived) status ( this is a huge one! ) insecurities are exposed, and yes, this will shake things up. A guy I know for a long time and with whom I met up last time, flipped out over the program 'ex on the beach'. It doesnt affect anyone, but it was like he went off, like a bull on a red flag. The toxity and vileness coming from him was almost tastable in the air. Now, it was not the words he said ( sluts ) but the way he said it, was downright repulsive. Its a huge wall thrown up in the seduction process if you ask me.
It shows it bringing down group value and this toxity is a hindrance for group perceived value.
Now, coming back to the tension im feeling that are tied to beliefs ( im interested what they are, cant recall ) and by recignizing it as so, I felt suddenly bulletproof/unstoppable.
Felt daddy as fuck and the shift was profound. Wherever I go, my interactions have seductive qualities.
Z who goes overt sexual. W who is way more engaging and give me puppy bowl like eyes. E who is way more looking up to me and physical. I who is seducing and seduced. Im feeling effin great to say to least.
Also, I am aware how I operated on a "needy" kind of vibe. Its shifted to giving and none is lost. Its a win and a release of tension.
Im pretty confident and sure im executing and will be executing. Some big things ate dealt with, some holes closed off ( no pun intended...or is it?) and FRM is effwctive yet want it to go even faster at times as I have a hard time understanding how some fears can be so fucking stubborn.
When I started running DMSI, I thought the flip was easy, like flipping a switch, getting me out of a funk/state, like a lightswitch, just "out of shape" but hey, DMSI is so much more.
- And women keep calling me daddy - ( the fuck? )
Im also realizing im still holding on some negativity. Its unattractive in the end, also...why?
Im having more going on, but I wont delve into it, due to several board/forum rules. I can but wont.
