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Athena's Attracting Perfect Boyfriend Journal
05-31-2016, 11:49 PM (This post was last modified: 06-01-2016 12:12 AM by Athena.)
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RE: Athena's Attracting Perfect Boyfriend Journal
Thanks so much!

I believe it was about the 21st - 23rd of April, cos I looked back to see when I asked him to "follow" him on instagram and he accepted. So that's about month 4 and a bit.

I took a break from men for a year and just went back to dating on the 8th of April. But A really is the most likely to - if any of them - be boyfriend-y. A lot of the others just want sex.

I also re-connected (no, I didn't have sex with him, I still by choice have not had sex for over a year, only had that one kiss on my first date after I got back into dating) with a lover from the past, though I'm trying to friend-zone him cos we probably shouldn't go down that road and we were going to meet at least as friends but then his work got crazy & honestly I felt a bit sad that we couldn't.

HE'S said some things that imply he's open to a relationship with me but still mmm predominantly being sexual. Saying a few things though a bit stronger than usual though in the past he HAS even sort of proposed and everything but it's never been clear cut with us. But saying things like "I like you a lot" and "I want more than just a shag."

Waters have always been murky between us two and he wants a wife and i want a live-out boyfriend so already those are different goals! But I'd still like to see him again.

A is still the best bet but well the ball's in HIS court now so to speak. I sent him a message with prospective plans after he messaged me saying what do I want to go/see/do and is his age a problem for me (it's not!) and that "I can't believe we're finally going to be meeting!"
But in reply to the message of prospective plans, he's replied "We'll sort something out :-)"
So, I'm backing WAY off. I replied "Ok :-) "

And my thoughts were a bit all over the place. Like all this anxiety about meeting A and what if he's not attracted. But now I'm like oh WHATEVER, back to coping with life, I guess. And if he comes to the party, GREAT.
I just have to be patient and keep doing this.
Cos like i said, I HAVE seen changes and hopefully it's just a matter of time.
My feelings so far are that YES this sub DOES take a long time well for some of us but also that it works.
I feel more confident overall now that I CAN attract my perfect boyfriend, though I still have times of doubt.
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06-02-2016, 05:04 AM (This post was last modified: 06-02-2016 05:14 AM by Athena.)
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RE: Athena's Attracting Perfect Boyfriend Journal
UGH!!!!
I think I am going to take a break seriously, man!

A guy I've erm you know a few times in the past but there was always an underlying friendship too and honestly possibly love on his side (he's basically even proposed in the past) came back into my life and wanted to meet. I was trying to suggest meeting as friends only, NO sex. Part of me loved the idea of food, DVDs, chatting, laughing. I hadn't said yes or no and was trying to resist.

Anyway HE'S hurt his back and A's sister had to go to hospital for a minor operation and i get THIS stupid message from A.:
"I really like chatting to you and would still love to see you. I can't do the day and when I'm back I'll message you. You're always welcome to come by mine when you want Smile"

UGH WHY do I keep being offered sex?
I am trying so hard to NOT have sex and I keep being offered sex, sex, sex.
FFS I could sleep with a different man every week but that's NOT what I want.
But I'm getting quite frustrated at trying SO hard to do the "right thing" (apparently, if a woman wants a relationship) and NOT have sex. And I almost feel like, why do I BOTHER trying to be good. Yes I miss sex a lot. Cos of my manbreak & now trying to be good & go slow, I haven't had it for 1 year and nearly two months. But I'm doing this to try and get a relationship. You know? and if having sex when I want it is the sacrifice I have to make to get it, I'm prepared to do that to show them I AM girlfriend material.

Like I said, I have to be patient and I don't even know any more. Seriously. I think maybe I'll just take a break and focus on a different life area for a while.

I'm still really grateful for all the changes I've seen inside and out so far but I'm pretty effed off today, I can't lie. And AS for chatting with someone for a month and thinking he MIGHT want more than just sex and then the welcome to come by my house. UHHH.

Oh well.

Maybe I'm trying TOO hard?
Maybe I just need to take a break and try and focus on attracting other things I want like money, galpal friends etc?!

Maybe it's just a hickup, just a bad day?

Anyway, we all have our moments, I know. And even my fave chatroom isn't working. My day from HELL. Heh heh
I'll try not to resist the sheet and do some work stuff even though I don't want to and play my lovely computer game & tidy the room (UGHH) and just find things to appreciate somehow.

Eh, we all have moments like these. Hopefully, this too shall pass.

I still feel like i've laid a strong foundation however.

And by the way, I didn't fancy my blind date but I DID enjoy the date it was lovely & we had some laughs & a great time chatting. So that was cool. I don't want more and he doesn't want to be just friends but we're still both glad we met.

Back to the drawing board methinx!
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06-02-2016, 06:56 AM
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RE: Athena's Attracting Perfect Boyfriend Journal
(06-02-2016 05:04 AM)Athena Wrote:  UGH!!!!
I think I am going to take a break seriously, man!

UGH WHY do I keep being offered sex?
I am trying so hard to NOT have sex and I keep being offered sex, sex, sex.

That's the vibration you are sending out to the universe and the more you resist the more you encounter it. For some reason, you are focused on guys only wanting sex.

Fastest and easiest way to change this vibration is to listen to EHPRA 2.0. Once you release this Guilt, Shame, and Fear about sex, then return to the AYP.

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06-02-2016, 07:47 AM
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RE: Athena's Attracting Perfect Boyfriend Journal
(06-02-2016 06:56 AM)4Kingdoms Wrote:  
(06-02-2016 05:04 AM)Athena Wrote:  UGH!!!!
I think I am going to take a break seriously, man!

UGH WHY do I keep being offered sex?
I am trying so hard to NOT have sex and I keep being offered sex, sex, sex.

That's the vibration you are sending out to the universe and the more you resist the more you encounter it. For some reason, you are focused on guys only wanting sex.

Fastest and easiest way to change this vibration is to listen to EHPRA 2.0. Once you release this Guilt, Shame, and Fear about sex, then return to the AYP.

Although it would help target the GSF, wouldn't it disrupt the manifestation of her 'boyfriend' and possibly end up starting the whole process again if she started from scratch since she will be a significantly improved version of herself, I'll leave it to Shannon answer this one?

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06-02-2016, 07:56 AM (This post was last modified: 06-02-2016 08:18 AM by 4Kingdoms.)
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RE: Athena's Attracting Perfect Boyfriend Journal
(06-02-2016 07:47 AM)dweller94 Wrote:  
(06-02-2016 06:56 AM)4Kingdoms Wrote:  
(06-02-2016 05:04 AM)Athena Wrote:  UGH!!!!
I think I am going to take a break seriously, man!

UGH WHY do I keep being offered sex?
I am trying so hard to NOT have sex and I keep being offered sex, sex, sex.

That's the vibration you are sending out to the universe and the more you resist the more you encounter it. For some reason, you are focused on guys only wanting sex.

Fastest and easiest way to change this vibration is to listen to EHPRA 2.0. Once you release this Guilt, Shame, and Fear about sex, then return to the AYP.

Although it would help target the GSF, wouldn't it disrupt the manifestation of her 'boyfriend' and possibly end up starting the whole process again if she started from scratch since she will be a significantly improved version of herself, I'll leave it to Shannon answer this one?

Yes it would disrupt the whole process!! The point of using it is to get your "Perfect" Boyfriend/Girlfriend/Lover. You have to be okay inside first before you can get what you really want.

Without EHPRA 2.0, Athena will get someone "Perfect" for "he only wants me for sex" vibration she is giving off. With EHPRA 2.0, Athena will get someone "Perfect" for the "He likes me for me" vibration she is giving off.

It may be a step backwards, at least it is an easy fix. When I ran Manifest Your Perfect Sexual Lover, EHPRA 2.0 didn't exist... Athena has the opportunity to change the outcome of her "Perfect" Boyfriend, all because she has access to EHPRA 2.0!!

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06-02-2016, 08:08 AM
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RE: Athena's Attracting Perfect Boyfriend Journal
well said...
http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-4807-p...#pid111976
(06-01-2016 01:43 PM)yeah! Wrote:  I have read the recent updates in your journal CatMan. For what its worth I think you are making the right decision to run E2, particularly if you want a woman or women to like you for you and for you to like them for them.

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06-02-2016, 08:47 AM
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RE: Athena's Attracting Perfect Boyfriend Journal
That's exactly what I did, I took a break and ran EHPRA 2.0 for 32 days. I'd totally recommend doing it. I had manifestations happening right after the break and going back to AYPB Smile
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06-02-2016, 11:03 AM
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RE: Athena's Attracting Perfect Boyfriend Journal
(06-02-2016 08:47 AM)cashmerecat Wrote:  That's exactly what I did, I took a break and ran EHPRA 2.0 for 32 days. I'd totally recommend doing it. I had manifestations happening right after the break and going back to AYPB Smile

@Athena
You already own AYPB. No need to buy it again. And EHPRA 2.0 is a sub you will (I will) use from time to time.

@cashmerecat
Did you notice higher quality Men being manifested after using E2??

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06-02-2016, 12:06 PM
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RE: Athena's Attracting Perfect Boyfriend Journal
Withholding sex is absolutely the WRONG thing for a woman to do if a real man will accept being in a relationship with her; men are likely looking for sex first because it's a helluva lot easier to add connection and such to an already sexual relationship than it is to add sex to a non-sexual one.

Also, I get the feeling you're playing these guys with your intentional indecisiveness, Athena. Abundance mindset is one thing, but you seem to be letting these guys believe something that's not true, which is that you're actually interested in them instead of letting them dangle as backups.

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06-03-2016, 03:43 AM (This post was last modified: 06-03-2016 03:43 AM by Mr. Anderson.)
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RE: Athena's Attracting Perfect Boyfriend Journal
Well, if you take sex out of the calculation it is going to be a friendship instead of a relationship, and that's not what you really want. In fact, you are not the only woman trying to get a relationship this way. I know another one in person. And you know what? She is attracting all the time men who just want to **** her (or having some sort of alibi-relationship just to **** her). So I think it's like, what you resists persists...
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06-03-2016, 02:00 PM
Post: #51
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I appreciate what you, Mr Anderson, and apollolux are saying, but I'm not sure. Guys can also sex-zone us! But then again, I've had a couple of guys when we were just having sex suddenly propose and want babies and stuff and very serious about it so that CAN happen (not that I was even trying to get that I wasn't)

I mean you might both be right, anyway I'm thinking over what you both said and what everyone has said in reply. And of course THANK you for replying Mr Anderson, apollolux, 4Kingdoms, cashmerecat & dweller94. And all the replies are very helpful!!
OK I've actually taken on board some of this for starters at least and I've stopped doing this sub for now but started doing the Emotional Healing and Pain Relief subliminal.

I might start a new journal about that.

I think I've noticed a couple of little responses in me to that & it will be interesting to see if it affects this - my love life - or not but either way, I think it's a subliminal I can really benefit from.

I think I agree with you with what most of you have said about pushing sex away so much and what you resist persists to the point that it COULD WELL be the reason I've been attracting guys who just want sex in the main.

Mr Anderson, you're right I DON'T want just a friendship not a relationship, that's very true. Some people have that, sexless relationships but I'd really rather NOT be one of them!!

In terms of do I change my stance on when to have sex, guys I don't know this is something I need to think about a lot more and thank you so much for all the perspectives. I'm bearing in mind all that's been said, and it is extremely helpful.

Either way, I think the EHPR sounds like a good thing for me to focus on for various reasons.

Cashmerecat, yes, I'm curious what changes you saw too, doing the EHPR and then returning to this - anyway what you said is encouraging and helpful!!

Wow, again, sorry to sound gushy but thanks you guys for all your input, it's really helpful and appreciated!
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06-03-2016, 05:42 PM
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RE: Athena's Attracting Perfect Boyfriend Journal
Athena, I know you've quit the sub, but we'd love to what kind of internal changes you went through after using this sub.

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06-03-2016, 11:44 PM
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The first one, EHPRA 1, the free one.
Huh, didn't realize there were two!
When I eventually get my finances sorted out, yes I COULD get 2 but right now, 1 it is.
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06-04-2016, 12:20 AM (This post was last modified: 06-04-2016 12:22 AM by Athena.)
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RE: Athena's Attracting Perfect Boyfriend Journal
Inner Changes I've seen:


Rising Warrior you've asked what sort of inner changes I've seen, I've thought about it and looked through this journal and these are the things:

Less attachment to getting a boyfriend. I still REALLY REALLY want one but I'm not - it's more things like, if something goes wrong I've gutted but I'm bouncing back a bit quicker I think. And I used to feel down about not being in a romantic relationship and sad about it a lot more. Sometimes I still no but nowhere near what I used to. Sometimes I even feel more hopeful now. Part of that is due to the outer changes that happened & getting back out there after a year off. But this sub has also helped.

Patterns: Being more aware that actually I've self-sabotaged with several guys in my life (at least) & realizing that there are some blocks there. I think it's when I think a guy is too good for me, it's a bit like what Shannon said but for me it's like "Oh, he's going to reject me, so I'll just reject him first, maybe that will hurt less." But it's been WAAAAY more subtle than that and come out as me saying things that put them off me, things that make it sound like i don't even like them. But just being more aware of the patterns there from before.

Improve & ideas - I had a few ideas of what to put on my profile or things to work on.

Self-love - Just a stronger urge to work on that and find ways to increase that NOT in a narcissistic way! - but in a healthy balanced way of course that includes a healthy respect for others too.

Dreams - this is more an outer life thing but it's also the inner world. I had a dream I was changing my facebook status to "in a relationship" and I've had sex dreams too, I think. I might have had dreams when I just kissed but I forget now.

(Erm, yes, it could also be my body protesting the not having sex thing! Ahem, moving on from that point!)

Less jealousy & insecurity.
Just in the sense that it used to be if I saw a guy I liked in a photo with a girl, I'd feel threatened, I'd think he was with her and so on. I mean like one example is when my ex boyfriend changed his profile photo to one of him next to a girl, in a pub together, quite close together looking cozy. It wasn't till I said to his best friend about (ex's) new girlfriend and bestie laughed and said, "She's just a friend and she doesn't even live in this country!" But compare THAT to
me seeing photos of my online crush with two other girls AND seeing girls flirt on his instagram with him and me NOT feeling the usual jealousy, insecurity, threatened, not feeling like wow I've got competition - I mean, yes I DO but not feeling automatically like "What's the point, he's going to choose one of THEM, he'd NEVER pick me."
This is what I have sometimes been like. I've felt like no use competing, she's better than me, let her have him.

This time I feel like, OK, so other girls fancy him, they have great taste. He could still pick ME, and if he doesn't it's OK. Someone great will. And oh she's probably just a friend - - - without being naive about it, I must ad!!

So those are the changes I've noticed on the inside. [/align][/u]
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06-04-2016, 12:22 AM
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RE: Athena's Attracting Perfect Boyfriend Journal
(06-03-2016 11:44 PM)Athena Wrote:  The first one, EHPRA 1, the free one.
Huh, didn't realize there were two!
When I eventually get my finances sorted out, yes I COULD get 2 but right now, 1 it is.

As far you can afford you should switch to E2. It's a complete different level than EPRHA 1.
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06-04-2016, 03:31 AM
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RE: Athena's Attracting Perfect Boyfriend Journal
Wow, thanks a lot for taking the time to write this out, Athena Smile . I can attest to the fact that using AYPG, I've gone through similar changes, some less and some more. Amazing progress and bravo! The only reason we're getting the results, even though not manifestations, is we're taking the time to put the sub to use through it's intended time.

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06-04-2016, 06:20 AM
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RE: Athena's Attracting Perfect Boyfriend Journal
(06-03-2016 11:44 PM)Athena Wrote:  The first one, EHPRA 1, the free one.
Huh, didn't realize there were two!
When I eventually get my finances sorted out, yes I COULD get 2 but right now, 1 it is.

SLAPS FOREHEAD WITH OPEN PALM!!! You didn't know about EHPRA 2.0??

(falls out of chair onto the floor)

You are using the original http://www.subliminal-shop.com/product/e...aling-aid/

Version 2, the version I and everyone else is recommending was released on 3/5/2016
http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-7286-p...#pid102474

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06-04-2016, 09:33 AM (This post was last modified: 06-04-2016 09:39 AM by Athena.)
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RE: Athena's Attracting Perfect Boyfriend Journal
Heh heh - Wow! DONE!!

I now have the upgrade!! I manifested the money for it (wish I could ALWAYS do it that quick!!!) And bought it! Buzzing out!!!
Some of the file extensions say .flac, what's a .flac file?
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06-04-2016, 12:00 PM
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RE: Athena's Attracting Perfect Boyfriend Journal
(06-04-2016 09:33 AM)Athena Wrote:  Heh heh - Wow! DONE!!

I now have the upgrade!! I manifested the money for it (wish I could ALWAYS do it that quick!!!) And bought it! Buzzing out!!!
Some of the file extensions say .flac, what's a .flac file?

A FLAC file is still a music file like MP3, but it does use lossless compression. Does mean even with Shannon's settings for encoding MP3, FLAC is still about 3 - 5% more effective. The downside is, Apple devices (and some others) doesn't play FLAC without special apps. What do you use for listening?
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06-04-2016, 03:59 PM
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Thanks Mr Anderson for explaining about those file types
to me & so quickly I appreciate that!

I have an iPhone & also a pretty basic
PC laptop. It wouldn't open that fold on PC could try on
iPhone. I used an app called files to download to phone
after trying to get it from EDownloader to Downloader.
Cos I like to listen to it on my iPhone at night. And the
silent one on the PC. I'm at the point where it's easier to
fall asleep listening to a sub.
Hopefully this will be the same just have Ocean on it but
will try & add trickling stream at some stage.

Thanks again! ?
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