07-11-2018, 08:47 AM
(07-10-2018, 09:23 PM)Have at ye Wrote:(07-10-2018, 09:12 PM)kalmah0804 Wrote:(07-10-2018, 07:29 PM)Leo1990 Wrote: @kalmah0804 I think were past the testing of 3.2 that shannon needed for 3.3. Why dont you return to the one that worked for you? It seems logical to me atleast that people should be using the one that works for them and then maybe try out new released for a bit to see if its better?
and ahem... get a gun.
Lmao, my roommates and I have been having that discussion (regarding the gun)... never thought I'd ever be in a situation like this.
Also, Shannon made it impossible to go back to older versions, and I don't have access to the drive I had initially saved 3.01 on, so its pretty much entirely unavailable to me. I'd rather run SM or WM, both of which I've had stronger, better, and quicker results with, both in terms of internal growth and external manifestations--but I'd obviously love for DMSI to completely heal and grow me--it just hasn't happened for me yet in all of the latest versions. In fact, it generally tends to completely break me down, leave me with a horrible amount of mental stress/psychic damage, and wreak havoc across the entire spectrum of my life.
IIRC, Shannon advised you to take a prolonged break from all subliminal programming of any kind whatsoever, to let your mind calm down and settle - this could possibly help with all the chaos. Did you take that break?
Yes, I did! I began to feel much, much better in those several months, and even developed something close to my first real relationship. I had a number of really high-potential, high-profile job offers come my way, and (I thought) killed it in all of my interviews, only for things to backfire and my life to go haywire once again almost as soon as I started running DMSI 3.2. I'm not entirely convinced that these 'counter manifestations' are actually manifestations--they could just all be a string of coincidences seeing as I've grown and matured a lot in the past 2 years, am probably more physically attractive than I may have ever been before in my life, and I also live in a city where mental illness is abnormally high--and I also live in a low-income, moderately high-crime neighborhood and have been frequenting bars and other establishments with friends that some people may describe as "seedy" or "sketchy". It makes sense regardless of DMSI in the picture that a lot of the things that have happened to me have gone down, it's just crazy that I've lived my whole life and have never had so many things like this happen to me (particularly being physically attacked or stalked by crazy people, and especially the two incidents of sexual assault/harrassment I experienced), but as soon as I started listening to the new DMSI, not only did I immediately lose all of my relaxed sense of self and purpose, but I also attracted a lot of negative events and encounters with other people in a very short amount of time. I just thought I'd ask Shannon or anyone on here who may know if counter-manifestations could be a thing that occurs when the subconscious is resisting the script so heavily that it actually self-sabotages itself by manifesting only negative or horrifying things instead of the things it's actually supposed to manifest.
Like snowfall, you cry a silent storm
Your tears paint rivers on this oaken wall. . .
-- Agalloch, The Mantle
Your tears paint rivers on this oaken wall. . .
-- Agalloch, The Mantle