10-01-2016, 01:02 AM
I didn't want to derail Catman's journal anymore than it is...
http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-4807-p...#pid134821
If you want to read what happened to Catman in his past, click on the link to read the whole entry.
When I read about Duke's past, it triggered a memory. None of us knows what is going on in someone's mind. Wherever I worked, I always made it a point to say hi and learn everyone's names. Doesn't always work, I still try to be friendly.
One day this new guy starts (he is still with the company after 20 years) I said "Hi" to him for one week straight... no response.
Me: That guy has a real attitude!
Woman: His wife and child are no longer with him.
Me: He's not the only guy in here that went through a divorce!
Woman: You don't understand... His wife and child died together in a car accident.
http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-4807-p...#pid134821
(09-30-2016, 08:58 PM)Duke.Togo Wrote: I say this because, yes, I have had sex with many women over the years and many of those women were extremely attractive, at least for me. But, no one knows the underlying emotions that run through me that triggered those experiences.
Since you shared a piece of your past with your post, let me share a piece of mine. When I was still in my teens, I had a girlfriend that I really loved. It was a unique relationship, especially for its time, because of our ethnicities. She was half Chinese and Half Korean - I am half Indian and a mix of other ethnicities make up the remaining 50% of my heritage.
So, it was kind of unheard of that she and I would even date. But we did, for three years as a matter of fact. And I really, truly loved her. I would have done anything for her.
And yes, she broke my heart, but not the way it happens for many guys. She broke my heart the day she died. How she died was even more tragic. She was raped and beaten to death. I was 17 at the time when she passed.
I haven't been able to have a normal relationship with a woman since I was 17. Every time a woman has gotten close to me, I have pushed them away specifically for this reason. On the flip side of it, what happened to her had been so ingrained into my mind, that I healed myself by basically not giving a shit and looking at women as just objects that I would want to have sex with.
I know DMSI is working because I ran into someone yesterday and at one time she was just one of my objects of desire - yesterday I was able to just relate to her without all of the stigma's I normally have. And I was able to just be genuinely happy for her success - she recently landed some very big projects that would propel her forward.
So, believe me, a lot of us on these threads have dark harboring feelings where we've had bad run-ins with our experiences with women.
I think that's why when it comes to scoring a girl and just enjoying the time without a lot of the stigma's is so amazing when it happens.
All of us are looking to heal Catman. In some way, shape, or form. Healing in and of itself is a painful process.
If you want to read what happened to Catman in his past, click on the link to read the whole entry.
When I read about Duke's past, it triggered a memory. None of us knows what is going on in someone's mind. Wherever I worked, I always made it a point to say hi and learn everyone's names. Doesn't always work, I still try to be friendly.
One day this new guy starts (he is still with the company after 20 years) I said "Hi" to him for one week straight... no response.
Me: That guy has a real attitude!
Woman: His wife and child are no longer with him.
Me: He's not the only guy in here that went through a divorce!
Woman: You don't understand... His wife and child died together in a car accident.
INTP-A
When you imagine something vividly... your subconscious will bring it into reality.
When you imagine something vividly... your subconscious will bring it into reality.