08-26-2016, 02:47 PM
day 156 - a pence for a smile
I smile because I got a second job waiting tables while I figure things out with real estate. I met a possible connection to help with my passion project.
I went out with the girl from bus station...eh. she was not in her 20's...she was 33 and apparently I must've thought she was 40 pounds lighter. I got a table, ordered apps and drank a lot. We had nothing in common. I started massaging her(hey everyone needs lovin). We made out. she told me she was so horny, we were making out for a good 15-20 minutes. then her uber gets there and I'm left standing there. she said she doesn't sleep on first dates. I only went in cuz its been a while for me and I know she wanted it. well I'm not calling her back.
I also met a woman getting off the bus and asked for her number and she gave it to me. we went on a date and she liked me. no kissing here. she went to Kenya 2 days later. I told her to text me when she got back.
ah and my crush. well, ltu is keeping me positive about the long game. you see, I know she was attracted to me for a while but I messed up and showed interest late. then that progressed to needy.
I was reading a journal and shannon mentioned something about the oe preventing someone from doing something because it wasn't right for him. I was wondering if the oe is preventing me from being successful with my crush. It feels very awkward and we are rarely clicking anymore. Its been a year. now she is cordial but the last time we hung out she ended the night cold to me.
I just need to meet someone equally cool/hot or better.
I think I start training next week, just waiting for email.
It will be good to start making money consistently.
I know once I have an income, I can go out and meet more women.
emotionally I am positive. I feel better about myself. I am checking myself out in the mirror more.
I am about to go to the gym.
I smile because I got a second job waiting tables while I figure things out with real estate. I met a possible connection to help with my passion project.
I went out with the girl from bus station...eh. she was not in her 20's...she was 33 and apparently I must've thought she was 40 pounds lighter. I got a table, ordered apps and drank a lot. We had nothing in common. I started massaging her(hey everyone needs lovin). We made out. she told me she was so horny, we were making out for a good 15-20 minutes. then her uber gets there and I'm left standing there. she said she doesn't sleep on first dates. I only went in cuz its been a while for me and I know she wanted it. well I'm not calling her back.
I also met a woman getting off the bus and asked for her number and she gave it to me. we went on a date and she liked me. no kissing here. she went to Kenya 2 days later. I told her to text me when she got back.
ah and my crush. well, ltu is keeping me positive about the long game. you see, I know she was attracted to me for a while but I messed up and showed interest late. then that progressed to needy.
I was reading a journal and shannon mentioned something about the oe preventing someone from doing something because it wasn't right for him. I was wondering if the oe is preventing me from being successful with my crush. It feels very awkward and we are rarely clicking anymore. Its been a year. now she is cordial but the last time we hung out she ended the night cold to me.
I just need to meet someone equally cool/hot or better.
I think I start training next week, just waiting for email.
It will be good to start making money consistently.
I know once I have an income, I can go out and meet more women.
emotionally I am positive. I feel better about myself. I am checking myself out in the mirror more.
I am about to go to the gym.