01-31-2016, 07:50 PM
the fears were bad enough to where i didn't bother messaging the girls i've been wanting to message for a LOOONG time. in the past, when i would go up to the plate, ALMOST ready to send the message, the fear turned into procrastination "oh i'll message them later" and/or negative self talk, looking at the messages i sent to them a couple years ago when i was extremely intoxicated, and made me ashamed looking at the messages....