Quote:First point. A couple of very sensitive personality types are actually damaged and made worse in terms of social anxiety by trying to force it. Ben is an example of such a personality type, and he will surely relate what happened for him if you ask, and he hasn't already. If you feel like forcing it is making anything worse, maybe a good idea not to.
Yeah hadn't gone into it but I can expand for you Churchill.
So i'd force myself to go out and do alot of approaching, and yes i'd do it for a while but then at some point i'd reach a point of 'shutdown'. Where fear/trauma/whatever would make me shut down kind of phsically and emotionally then i'd actually end up reverting back worse than where I started and not able to talk to girls for a while. Then i'd build up to it again which would take like 6 months or so and it would happen again.
I realized it was my deeper trauma that was bringing all this crap up. I see E2 is starting to make progress. I've had a few times in the last few weeks where i've simply just been inspired by a girl and had to talk to her and been propelled to do it. Which can be explained by E2 healing some things.
But when I force myself to approach tons of girls even though some of them do nothing for me just in the hope of getting laid.. well that seems to bring up these issues more. It doesnt help not being in a large city either.
I'm hoping E2 brings me to the point I can just talk to these girls who inspire me when i'm out somewhere and not give a fuck about the other ones or have to force myself because I just am desperate to get laid.
I'm seeing progress in that direction, and also self expression and opening up to women where I wasn't before.
It's been about a month on E2 this time. Before maybe a week or two before I tested DMSI 2.1 for a week then went back to E2.