11-27-2015, 09:13 AM
(11-19-2015, 02:43 AM)ArcticFox Wrote: Day 58
Days completed = 40
Days missed = 18
Days required to complete 1 stage: 18 * 0.5 = 9 | 32 + 9 = 41
So tonight is my last night for stage 1 completion :exclamation:
Thoughts of the day:I have a cycle (well before doing subs) of going through being lazy, indulging, procrastination, heavy frap over pron and back to be productive, healthy, exercising, natural desire for women (no pornhub). This cycle pretty much disappeared during this 1st run of EPRHA , and I just amplified all of the negative parts and supressed the positive parts.
- early this morning urge to shun friends and close off which is fairly normal for me, although I'm over reacting over much more trivial things to trigger this.
- Some thoughts and feelings to getting my shit together, training, eating healthier, focusing on study, career.
- Feels as if I'm just about to make some small break throughs, or at least on the very cusp!
I've really enjoyed your journal. I especially like how you're honest about what you see to be your negative hang ups. Especially the cyclical habits, which basically every human seems to have too much of. Some are just a bit more extended than others haha
I would like to add, though, that these negative behaviors are not always negative. Especially when going through your emotional and habit formed "junk" our minds often times DO need a break. Isolation and sexual release can be very helpful when our mind is processing a lot, which this sub seems to be doing. Be kind to yourself bro, you're making excellent headway in an area that most people are not brave enough to confront. If these things do come up again it might be because you're doing so well that you need a break. Keep going man, it's awesome to read about your progress!