09-24-2015, 06:26 PM
==28 days done, month 2==
28 days done in the second month and I feel like giving up life.
For the past couple of days, possibly longer, I've been sweating profusely during the day regardless of the weather or any location's air conditioning. Today I experience the sweating while on the train AND I start feeling nauseous. I exit the train at the halfway point of its trip and make it to a trashcan just in time before I start vomiting. I eventually make my way to a McDonald's near that train station to use the bathroom and proceed to experience what I feel is the third noticeable side effect of the medication, diarrhea. None of what I had this morning has stayed inside.
I gave the medication 29 days because I wanted to give it a genuine try and supposedly it takes a while to kick in. I'm not willing to put up with this level of psychic/mental/emotional exhaustion AND this level of physical exhaustion, so I plan to quit the medication. My doctor suggests lowering the dose instead, and believes a recent change in diet is more likely the culprit than the medication finally taking effect.
I still feel angry and aggressive most of the time, and still have difficulty calibrating my interactions with others, still coming off intimidating and not getting the results I'm looking for with women especially.
I'm not thinking straight today to write much more given this morning's gastrointestinal tempest. Maybe I'll amend in later posts.
28 days done in the second month and I feel like giving up life.
For the past couple of days, possibly longer, I've been sweating profusely during the day regardless of the weather or any location's air conditioning. Today I experience the sweating while on the train AND I start feeling nauseous. I exit the train at the halfway point of its trip and make it to a trashcan just in time before I start vomiting. I eventually make my way to a McDonald's near that train station to use the bathroom and proceed to experience what I feel is the third noticeable side effect of the medication, diarrhea. None of what I had this morning has stayed inside.
I gave the medication 29 days because I wanted to give it a genuine try and supposedly it takes a while to kick in. I'm not willing to put up with this level of psychic/mental/emotional exhaustion AND this level of physical exhaustion, so I plan to quit the medication. My doctor suggests lowering the dose instead, and believes a recent change in diet is more likely the culprit than the medication finally taking effect.
I still feel angry and aggressive most of the time, and still have difficulty calibrating my interactions with others, still coming off intimidating and not getting the results I'm looking for with women especially.
I'm not thinking straight today to write much more given this morning's gastrointestinal tempest. Maybe I'll amend in later posts.
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