Yesterday I noticed this cute girl at the other end of the gym and she noticed me. We exchanged glances a few times. After a while she came over to use the Leg Press. Now picture this. Two leg press machines, both unoccupied. She chooses the one right next to me. And I know she looked at me a few times while she was there. I didn't put 2 and 2 together until she left, and at first I was disappointed in myself for not recognizing that she located herself close to me for a reason, but then I thought I should be proud of myself for realizing it at all, and my awareness will improve over time. The thing is I became self-conscious while she was there. It actually affected the quality of my reps. And I had no intention of talking to her. It's actually disturbing how automatic the willful avoidance of women has become from years of doing so. But the reasons for doing so are slowly eroding.
On that note, I am considering a 360 on my position on waiting to run SM3. I don't expect to become an embodiment of the sales page after one run, but there are points I stand to benefit from right now. In no particular order:
The more I think about it, the more I see value in running the program now as opposed to 'when I'm ready'
On that note, I am considering a 360 on my position on waiting to run SM3. I don't expect to become an embodiment of the sales page after one run, but there are points I stand to benefit from right now. In no particular order:
- I am not as attractive in my mind as I am perceived to be by others. I get cues and feedback every single day that I am good looking. I need help aligning my mind with my appearance.
- I need work in the areas of shame, fear, and confidence—in general, and especially in relation to women and sex.
- A higher sex drive i.e. instructions for devoting my energy to libido would help with the frequency and quality of my enlargement training.
- Causes sex to be better, gives you better sexual stamina, self control, confidence.
The more I think about it, the more I see value in running the program now as opposed to 'when I'm ready'
Under heaven all can see beauty as beauty only because there is ugliness.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.
All can know good as good only because there is evil.