08-01-2016, 08:08 AM
(07-31-2016, 10:26 AM)Ivaylo Wrote: Fifth day of E2 full-time and I'm manifesting situations in full swing. I'm not going into details, but it seems like everything that I need to happen to get new realizations about my life... well, it happens. I've "lost" my closest friend for the last 5-6 years last week due to some seemingly illogical behavior on his part and I'm still learning to take advantage of the new opportunities that arise.
I'm realizing how untrusting I've become lately. Lots of people I considered close let me down during the last 1.5 years, not sure if I should call this BASE or simply life, but this didn't use to happen before, not at this scale. I've taken pride in being resilient and consistent through all this, but I guess this has taken its toll on me nevertheless.
Still, on BASE, I didn't experience this to be that much of a limitation, but here on E2 it's a different game. Here, I seem to be receiving so much love that any closing down, any hardening that I've developed, becomes painfully obvious. Just one example was when I had a great girl show me a solid sign of trustworthiness and care the other day and I just couldn't fit it into my world view for some reason. Took me a day to appreciate what I've witnessed.
Anyway, the common theme here seems to be Love and breaking down all boundaries that obstruct its flow. I'm seeing some BASE programming unfold and my productivity is a little bit better, but that's not my main measure of progress. Somehow all my previous plans that I'll only do E2 if it doesn't interfere with business - they went right through the window.
The first 2 - 3 weeks on E2 helped unfold a lot of things I was wanting on BASE. After around 3 weeks the positive manifestations started slowing and the grinding emotional healing started, which was a slow but needed process.
Even if it feels like you're moving through mud with the healing stuff (you feel compelled to switch subs) push through for at least 2 months, IF that suits your situation.
If i rerun E2 (though I'm hoping E3 is out by the end of my BASE run) I might do a quick month, then run possibly my third and last BASE 5G.
I didn't think of E2 in the way you describe, with the 'Love and breaking down all boundaries that obstruct its flow', but that's sort of true for what I experienced.
I was pushed into situations where i had to confront past fears, resistances with others I had always avoided, and generally to be more open about accepting myself and others.
It will be curious to see how productivity goes after a few weeks, because mine sort of dropped and I'm not entirely sure what the cause was. Citing lack of motivation feels a little weak, but I'm not sure how else to describe what developed.
The healing overall was pretty intense though, as I'm pretty sure you'll experience.