11-13-2017, 05:02 PM
Good thoughts in here, thanks guys.
My take on the gay thing... Sure, I can admire a guy for having an attractive trait because I myself value that trait, whether it be looks or character traits. But, I have no desire to perform a gay act. What is weird to me is that I generally don't think about homosexual acts so to me its odd that those thoughts pop up now. Does that make me gay, no, I think all guys think about it from time to time, but still I find it odd that the thoughts now exist in my mind whereas before they did not. To echo what I heard from others, they are just thoughts and nothing more.
I took a 4 day break from DMSI while I was in vegas. I think one day I listened for 2 loops with headphones and that was it all trip. I think I'm feeling a bloom of sorts because I actually feel sexy today instead of anxious like I had been feeling. I think the other factor for me to note to myself is that I was listening for too many loops and have been treating it like a 5g sub. I was getting tired and anxious. so... I'll stick with 2 loops per day for awhile until I see a reason not to.
Today everyone was bending backwards to help me out. EVERYONE. At work, in the tech lab, at 2 stores... I felt a sense of power within myself. Good stuff. I was running around a lot and sweating so maybe it is my enhanced natural pheromones from DMSI, or maybe the aura thing... who knows.
My take on the gay thing... Sure, I can admire a guy for having an attractive trait because I myself value that trait, whether it be looks or character traits. But, I have no desire to perform a gay act. What is weird to me is that I generally don't think about homosexual acts so to me its odd that those thoughts pop up now. Does that make me gay, no, I think all guys think about it from time to time, but still I find it odd that the thoughts now exist in my mind whereas before they did not. To echo what I heard from others, they are just thoughts and nothing more.
I took a 4 day break from DMSI while I was in vegas. I think one day I listened for 2 loops with headphones and that was it all trip. I think I'm feeling a bloom of sorts because I actually feel sexy today instead of anxious like I had been feeling. I think the other factor for me to note to myself is that I was listening for too many loops and have been treating it like a 5g sub. I was getting tired and anxious. so... I'll stick with 2 loops per day for awhile until I see a reason not to.
Today everyone was bending backwards to help me out. EVERYONE. At work, in the tech lab, at 2 stores... I felt a sense of power within myself. Good stuff. I was running around a lot and sweating so maybe it is my enhanced natural pheromones from DMSI, or maybe the aura thing... who knows.