Day 12:
There's so much to talk about, but I can't figure out where to start or even what to write.
This sub... is doing strange things. Nothing feels right. Everything feels off. It's like there's cracks in my day-to-day reality and I never know what to expect. People are being SO unpredictable. It's absolutely insane. I'm getting such polarized responses that I don't even know how to interact with others right now.
The women I wouldn't expect to be attracted to me are attracted and vice-versa. My "baseline" attractive properties have seem to increased. Instead of attracting 4's, 5's and the occasional 6, it's like my default is now 6's and 7's.
Men are being downright disrespectful or submissive. OR, they ghost the hell out of me. And the thing is... I realize that I do this same thing to people I perceive as high value. I either act a little disrespectful to assert my own value, or I pretend they don't exist.
My official theory? We're just not used to being treated the way a high status, high value male is treated and it's an eye-opening experience. We've all wanted to be the "alpha male," but I'm not sure if we've ever considered what that life is like. Constantly having to be on your A-game because EVERYONE is gunning for your status, money or position.
Some people are going to love you because they feel they can profit somehow from your status. Others will hate you for simply existing because it reminds them of what they're not. Some will just ignore you, because they aren't interested in playing the game and they're letting you know that. It's a lonely life, knowing that no one truly cares about your intrinsic worth -- if you even have any. Everyone's just interested in what you can bring to the table.
This is the reality that I'm slowly shifting toward in v3.1. It's not an easy path. My body feels wrecked because I spent three hours this morning at the gym. One hour BJJ, one hour conditioning, one hour boxing. I woke up at 5:30a to get ready and my mind was SCREAMING at me to just get back in bed. However, I pressed forward -- telling myself that the more my mind tells me to stop, the harder I must push toward progress. This is a new mindset. It must be Ultra Motivation.
I'm convinced that some variant of Everything is Possible is in v3.1 because I'm constantly feeling like my limits are being melted away.
I'm pretty sure I sniped the shit out of my BJJ rolling partner this morning. She's a cute (and talented) petite chick. When we were paired together, she began blushing. While rolling, she kept thrusting her hips against me in a very odd way -- almost like we were fucking. She's a little bit more advanced than I am, so I'm not sure if she's executing some technique that I'm not aware of, but the BJJ instructor did tell her to control her hip movement and stop flailing, which led me to believe that she was... mock f*cking me? And I couldn't keep my eyes off the little sports bra she had on under her gi...
I also opened the tall, leggy black chick. She and I kept bantering throughout class and she was laughing at all my jokes, even if they weren't funny. Lots of eye contact. Lots of subtle touching. Was interesting.
I feel like I'm in execution mode today. Very hot and I can feel the energy sourcing. I've also manifested a very tall, beautiful blonde on Tinder. We're chatting it up now.
Interesting sub, this is...
There's so much to talk about, but I can't figure out where to start or even what to write.
This sub... is doing strange things. Nothing feels right. Everything feels off. It's like there's cracks in my day-to-day reality and I never know what to expect. People are being SO unpredictable. It's absolutely insane. I'm getting such polarized responses that I don't even know how to interact with others right now.
The women I wouldn't expect to be attracted to me are attracted and vice-versa. My "baseline" attractive properties have seem to increased. Instead of attracting 4's, 5's and the occasional 6, it's like my default is now 6's and 7's.
Men are being downright disrespectful or submissive. OR, they ghost the hell out of me. And the thing is... I realize that I do this same thing to people I perceive as high value. I either act a little disrespectful to assert my own value, or I pretend they don't exist.
My official theory? We're just not used to being treated the way a high status, high value male is treated and it's an eye-opening experience. We've all wanted to be the "alpha male," but I'm not sure if we've ever considered what that life is like. Constantly having to be on your A-game because EVERYONE is gunning for your status, money or position.
Some people are going to love you because they feel they can profit somehow from your status. Others will hate you for simply existing because it reminds them of what they're not. Some will just ignore you, because they aren't interested in playing the game and they're letting you know that. It's a lonely life, knowing that no one truly cares about your intrinsic worth -- if you even have any. Everyone's just interested in what you can bring to the table.
This is the reality that I'm slowly shifting toward in v3.1. It's not an easy path. My body feels wrecked because I spent three hours this morning at the gym. One hour BJJ, one hour conditioning, one hour boxing. I woke up at 5:30a to get ready and my mind was SCREAMING at me to just get back in bed. However, I pressed forward -- telling myself that the more my mind tells me to stop, the harder I must push toward progress. This is a new mindset. It must be Ultra Motivation.
I'm convinced that some variant of Everything is Possible is in v3.1 because I'm constantly feeling like my limits are being melted away.
I'm pretty sure I sniped the shit out of my BJJ rolling partner this morning. She's a cute (and talented) petite chick. When we were paired together, she began blushing. While rolling, she kept thrusting her hips against me in a very odd way -- almost like we were fucking. She's a little bit more advanced than I am, so I'm not sure if she's executing some technique that I'm not aware of, but the BJJ instructor did tell her to control her hip movement and stop flailing, which led me to believe that she was... mock f*cking me? And I couldn't keep my eyes off the little sports bra she had on under her gi...
I also opened the tall, leggy black chick. She and I kept bantering throughout class and she was laughing at all my jokes, even if they weren't funny. Lots of eye contact. Lots of subtle touching. Was interesting.
I feel like I'm in execution mode today. Very hot and I can feel the energy sourcing. I've also manifested a very tall, beautiful blonde on Tinder. We're chatting it up now.
Interesting sub, this is...
