Today has been my last day of Alpha Male 6.0.
I have no mixed feelings, no anticipation, no consternation; the day just ended, and I'll probably wind up getting a better night of sleep due to the lack of subliminal influence.
This also means that I will soon start doing clearing tapping again; I haven't done any in about 13 months. I had promised myself to not do it, given that it could interfere with the programming.
I've done a total of three runs of Alpha Male up to this point. I would say that I'm overall satisfied, but this run seemed to be lacking. I'd probably give this run a 6 out of 10, only due to the "what if" factor; I spent 5 of 6 stages cooped up in a small town with no money making opportunities, meager dating prospects, and few opportunities to socialize, so I can fairly say that my environment has played a role in pacifying me.
However, in late November 2015, I took the bull by the horns and began making money over the internet; this has been quite rewarding, and I'm over 80% the Powerpoint slides of the Udemy course I'll be creating. This is the first step of many; there is still formatting, audio recording, video recording, editing, compressing, uploading, and marketing, but there is thousands of dollars to be made from this avenue. Much better than wasting it on video games and porn (which I do indulge in from time to time, but isn't an escape).
One complaint is that I'm much less disciplined and motivated than I was last year. This is likely due to the fact that I was working towards something huge in 2015; my graduation. With that in the bag, a facile part-time job, and only a (big) test in May to motivate me to study, there is no reason to wake up at 5:45am, to not crack open that beer, to not beat off. I'm slipping, and I don't like it, especially knowing that AM failed to keep me on top of my game.
If anything, I wish that I could be, in perpetuity, the version of myself in May 2015; my goodness, I was fierce; a strict time-table, no dessert or alcohol, few distractions, daily exercise, planned rewards, daily practice, tons of reading, making huge strides with the guitar. However, if I were to look objectively at my day, I still manage to tackle all of my biggest priorities.
Now, I'm becoming obsequious about higher knowledge and big concepts; I've been reading John Stuart Mill and really taking the time to understand the logical implications of each passage. The cognitive levels that I (feel that I) am reaching blows me away. I graduated from university at precisely the time when its students seemed to go crazy with social justice. My alma mater banned its yoga class for 'cultural appropriation'. But I digress.
I have a general plan for escaping my town; make a bunch of money with my courses, take the test, get my license. This will buy time for me to develop my voice, this time, the proper way by means of a competent teacher. In six months, my plan will certainly be different, and my skill set will be all the better.
In a few days, I intend on resuming 'Stop Stuttering' and 'Maximum Learning Speed'.
I have no mixed feelings, no anticipation, no consternation; the day just ended, and I'll probably wind up getting a better night of sleep due to the lack of subliminal influence.
This also means that I will soon start doing clearing tapping again; I haven't done any in about 13 months. I had promised myself to not do it, given that it could interfere with the programming.
I've done a total of three runs of Alpha Male up to this point. I would say that I'm overall satisfied, but this run seemed to be lacking. I'd probably give this run a 6 out of 10, only due to the "what if" factor; I spent 5 of 6 stages cooped up in a small town with no money making opportunities, meager dating prospects, and few opportunities to socialize, so I can fairly say that my environment has played a role in pacifying me.
However, in late November 2015, I took the bull by the horns and began making money over the internet; this has been quite rewarding, and I'm over 80% the Powerpoint slides of the Udemy course I'll be creating. This is the first step of many; there is still formatting, audio recording, video recording, editing, compressing, uploading, and marketing, but there is thousands of dollars to be made from this avenue. Much better than wasting it on video games and porn (which I do indulge in from time to time, but isn't an escape).
One complaint is that I'm much less disciplined and motivated than I was last year. This is likely due to the fact that I was working towards something huge in 2015; my graduation. With that in the bag, a facile part-time job, and only a (big) test in May to motivate me to study, there is no reason to wake up at 5:45am, to not crack open that beer, to not beat off. I'm slipping, and I don't like it, especially knowing that AM failed to keep me on top of my game.
If anything, I wish that I could be, in perpetuity, the version of myself in May 2015; my goodness, I was fierce; a strict time-table, no dessert or alcohol, few distractions, daily exercise, planned rewards, daily practice, tons of reading, making huge strides with the guitar. However, if I were to look objectively at my day, I still manage to tackle all of my biggest priorities.
Now, I'm becoming obsequious about higher knowledge and big concepts; I've been reading John Stuart Mill and really taking the time to understand the logical implications of each passage. The cognitive levels that I (feel that I) am reaching blows me away. I graduated from university at precisely the time when its students seemed to go crazy with social justice. My alma mater banned its yoga class for 'cultural appropriation'. But I digress.
I have a general plan for escaping my town; make a bunch of money with my courses, take the test, get my license. This will buy time for me to develop my voice, this time, the proper way by means of a competent teacher. In six months, my plan will certainly be different, and my skill set will be all the better.
In a few days, I intend on resuming 'Stop Stuttering' and 'Maximum Learning Speed'.
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