05-25-2012, 05:09 PM
So finished up stage 5 last night. Also on day 20 of extreme self esteem.
Its hard to say what stage 5 did but I know there was a lot of resistance. At times I felt helpless and at times I felt ok. At other times I felt down. Felt a lot like stages 1 and 2 at times minus the stress of just breaking up from my ex
Sum up of some of what I think it did.
* Feel a bit more ok being my own man doing my own thing and being on my own
* Motivation was a bit up and down
* Social anxiety decreased a bit near the end
* Women staring decreased a bit near the end
* Started to feel bad about dropping my standards
Can't say I've noticed alot from extreme self esteem yet but its early days and I suspect a lot of what it is doing is subtle and inner work
Also my boss said something interesting the other day. He mentioned how when I was motivated I could achieve anything. He said I have so much potential inside but I barely ever use it. This was also reiterated by my mens group who said I have much more talent than I give myself credit for or realize. Would be good to be able to tap into this all the time but I know its my fears that hold me back.
Anyway on to stage 6 tonight and I've heard this is where it all comes together and for a lot of people is their favorite stage so looking forward to it. At the end of it though I'm going to have to make a decision on what to run next. Its not going to be easy but I'm going to have to re-evaluate my goals
Its hard to say what stage 5 did but I know there was a lot of resistance. At times I felt helpless and at times I felt ok. At other times I felt down. Felt a lot like stages 1 and 2 at times minus the stress of just breaking up from my ex
Sum up of some of what I think it did.
* Feel a bit more ok being my own man doing my own thing and being on my own
* Motivation was a bit up and down
* Social anxiety decreased a bit near the end
* Women staring decreased a bit near the end
* Started to feel bad about dropping my standards
Can't say I've noticed alot from extreme self esteem yet but its early days and I suspect a lot of what it is doing is subtle and inner work
Also my boss said something interesting the other day. He mentioned how when I was motivated I could achieve anything. He said I have so much potential inside but I barely ever use it. This was also reiterated by my mens group who said I have much more talent than I give myself credit for or realize. Would be good to be able to tap into this all the time but I know its my fears that hold me back.
Anyway on to stage 6 tonight and I've heard this is where it all comes together and for a lot of people is their favorite stage so looking forward to it. At the end of it though I'm going to have to make a decision on what to run next. Its not going to be easy but I'm going to have to re-evaluate my goals
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of
