02-23-2012, 01:53 AM
Completely agree with you there Ben. I had so much that I thought I had dealt with that I hadn't at all and that all came to heed in my last relationship. I was actually in a worse space because of it while pretending to be in a better.
Its funny how life throws at us what we need at times. I needed to go through the turmoil of my last relationship to realize the path I was walking wasn't the right one and I had to deal with a few things instead of hiding them away. I've also dealt with more this time round I have actually dealt with more in 4 months than I did in 8 last time even though I haven't seen the results I had last time I'm on the path to see them and I'm actually being true and honest about my feelings and my insecurities.
So much more crying and emotional release this time round but I needed it. On the plus side got a strong urge to play the guitar today and went hunting but couldn't find it also got a feeling of wanting to go do my PADI Dive Masters over in Bali followed by all these fears to do with leaving home and moving away.
Its funny how life throws at us what we need at times. I needed to go through the turmoil of my last relationship to realize the path I was walking wasn't the right one and I had to deal with a few things instead of hiding them away. I've also dealt with more this time round I have actually dealt with more in 4 months than I did in 8 last time even though I haven't seen the results I had last time I'm on the path to see them and I'm actually being true and honest about my feelings and my insecurities.
So much more crying and emotional release this time round but I needed it. On the plus side got a strong urge to play the guitar today and went hunting but couldn't find it also got a feeling of wanting to go do my PADI Dive Masters over in Bali followed by all these fears to do with leaving home and moving away.
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of
